body acceptance

Two Meatballs: #Fatkinis For Everyone!!!!

*All photos used in the post are for entertainment purposes only and were all obtained from google image searches.

My name is Sara and I am hopelessly addicted to fashion and I always have been.


I mean…this girl means business! #babysara

When I was little I would make collages of models.  I grew up in the heyday of The Super Model #heyoribe and I was hooked from image one.


I’ve had subscriptions to Teen Vogue, Vogue, Harper’s Bazar, In Style, V, W, Nylon and anything else I could get my hands on since the dawn of time.  House of Style on MTV was my jam. #amberandshalom   My best friend Lyndsay and I would play a game where we were designers and we made sketch books of our collections  and would sell them to celebrities! #nerds I watched the George Michael’s Freedom video 1 million-ty times.  I knew every single model and I fantasized about being in that video.  I love love love clothes and styling.  My secret dream job is to be a personal shopper/stylist…you know if my arms ever rip off and I can’t do hair winky face.  #moveoverstaceyandclinton My ultimate dreams came to fruition a few years ago when thanks to my bosses and Oribe and Kien, I got the chance to work Mercedes Benz Fashion Week in NYC.  I had the opportunity to work  Skaist-Taylor’s premier show! #dreamsreallydocometrue


I even had the privilege of helping with the WWD Look Book #ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

But back to childhood…Since I was always bigger, I lived (and still do to this day) to dress my normally sized friends and family!!!  #letmelivevicariously This was what models looked like when I was a kid.


It was hard to find a role model…or positive imagery for plus sized women…or even a place to shop! It was ok for big women to be funny (Roseanne) or successful (Oprah) but they couldn’t dare have the audacity to be thought of as sexy and they had the constant pressure to talk about dieting and the struggle. This shaped my childhood and a few of my teen years.


But it was even worse before my time!


Yeesh! Ouch!!!! I was so envious of my friends who could shop at The Limited Too, 5-7-9 and later The Express #hikelly #itsthisskirt,igotitfromexpress.  I couldn’t understand why they wouldn’t make the same clothes, just in bigger sizes.


I found Lane Bryant when I was 16.  For the very first time in my life there was a store that had somewhat fashionable (but possibly not age appropriate) clothing that actually fit my body.  Before 16 I just put on whatever fit…literally.  So, it certainly wasn’t fashion freedom by any stretch of the imagination, but I definitely felt better about my self, my choices, my body and my ability to be sexy.  As I got older, other options started popping up…Torrid became a huge go to for me.  Department stores started having better plus size options that weren’t matronly hell; Nordstrom, Belk, Macy’s to name a few.  Then in my very late 20’s, early 30’s something happened.  The population as a whole averaged around a size 14.  And people were getting tired of not having options.  It wasn’t so chic anymore that clothing companies only offered size 00-8.  The majority consumer base was sized out of most clothing stores.  To quote Pretty Women…”I have money to spend”.  And you know what it became for companies who wouldn’t adapt from their antiquated sizing limitations…”A big mistake…HUGE!”  H&M, Forever21, Charlotte Russe all started carrying plus.  Online empires like Eloquii, Igigi, Evans, ASOS Curve, Mod Cloth, Monif C, Simply Be, Evans, BooHoo Official, and so many more offer amazing styles that I could have only dreamed up as a child. Now I really feel like I can craft my own style that represents who I am and what I love instead of being pigeon holed into something bc it’s all I was offered. (i.e.: boxy ill fitting button ups and capris)  Ever since the dawn of social media and bloggers and brave magazines who embraced what the average American woman really looked like…the world started changing…my world in particular. This segment is called…Holy Role Models.


First off..swooooon!  Sexy images of curvy women.  Scantily clad images of plus sized beauties started cropping up…


High fashion images of women who looked a hell of a lot more like I looked (minus the height of course…and the model status …and cheekbones haha)…And even gasp…naked lovelies who weren’t waif-ish and who weren’t ashamed in the least.


Look how sexy these women are!  There is beauty in everything…everywhere you look.  I believe in building people up, not tearing them down….certainly not for their size or looks.  It finally felt like the world was evolving and coming around to the idea that beauty, confidence and sex appeal comes in every shape, color and size. And if you’ve been living under a rock, you may not know this but a pretty powerful thing just happened in the world of fashion…MILK Modeling Agency has signed sized the stunning beauty that is Tess Munster.



Thank goodness the world is evolving!!!! This community is so powerful and so able to be heard immediately thanks to the ever present and growing social media, that clothing giants are listening and bringing in theses bloggers and giving the people what we have wanted all along.  Fashionable, attractive, sexy, on trend clothing. When I found clothes that made me feel good, I started feeling very empowered and feeling empowered is addictive and …empowering.  You want to pay it forward.  You want for every woman, man and appropriately aged child to feel amazing in their own skin and for me the start of that is liking your clothes, seeing people who look like you and embracing the beautiful gifts you’ve been given.  Your sexiness comes from you…others just have the pleasure of taking it all in.  So now we come to today.  The world is full of positive body imagery, powerful body acceptance blogs and tons of clothing options.  It’s also full of women who want to be referred to as simply women, instead of plus size.  I am so guilty of this bc it is a label that has defined me forever.  I find no shame in it, but I can for sure get behind a campaign to unite everyone.  We are women, hear us roar no matter our differences.


But my favorite trend of late is #fatkini.  This trend started last summer in an attempt to have nothing off limits, a ton of very differently shaped and sized ladies decided that ANYONE can wear bikinis…I mean why not…they’re so adorable.  I love this movement and everything that it means.  It means that women are embracing their bodies and loving them and wanting to put them on display.  Yes we can!!!  So today, for the first time in my life I joined the rest of the world and bought my first…several bikins  and you guyyyyyyys….I’m in love!


With three bottoms and three tops I have so many options!!!!  And I’ve never felt cuter!!!! This is my all time favorite trend and it’s more flattering than almost every single one of my one pieces. #fatkinisforall Here are some other real life people embracing this fashion takeover…



And these are my favorite models reppin’ like champs…


This is Fluvia Lacerda.


Ashley Graham…


Tess Munster and friends… And these are my favorite bloggers…


Nadia Aboulhosn This girl changed my whole world…her fashion game is on point and now she has a line with Boo Hoo Official!!! #dreamsreallydocometrue #styleicon #myhero


Danielle Vanier


Gabi Fresh-she has a hell of a sexy swim wear line




Garner Syle is my current obsession (on the right) Chastity Garner-Valentine you should check her out today!!!!  So when I posted my pic from Torrid today with #fatkini on it, I tagged basically everyone I mentioned above and these three awesome things happened…


Swoooooooooooon!!!! My life is complete.  My blogging/fashion idols are the shit.  Garner Style, Gabi Fresh and Fluvia made my whole life!  Thanks y’all.  So in closing, I hope you find the inspiration or trend you need to make you feel as great as you already are. Stop waiting for perfection to happen, no one cares about your stretch marks or bat wings and if they do, it’s really just a reflection of how poorly they see themselves. Hug your judgmental friend…she needs it and go out and get that bikini/romper/jumpsuit/overalls!!!  Check out those blogs.  And if you aren’t plus sized it’s ok…this post is about everyone feeling great about who they are…not just girls that look like me!  Jenny and I are still fighting the fight for health and we choose to be proud and confident during the entire process.

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And in closing this is a little segment called…trends that don’t work for me!!! Hahahahaha!!!  I believe that you should never limit yourself, but I also believe that some things look better on my body than others!  These made the don’t list and had me cracking up in the dressing room. #yourwelcome #camelwoahhhhhh #iveneverlookedshorter #babydenimvest #sorrykelly


I love ugly almost as much as I love things that work!  #anythingforalaugh Lovey’all!



Two Meatballs: My Secret Lady Garden…aka Laser Cats Part 5!!!

Hiiiii you guyyyyyssss!!!  Today marked a couple of big milestones!!!  First…I wore a skirt without tights or leggings!!!


This may not seem like a big deal but as someone who has LIVED in leggings or maxi dresses for the past three or so years this is a bigggg thing…even though less than four inches of skin is showing!  It also may seem like a crazy thing considering that even at our heaviest we have been baring alllll once a month and putting it on the interwebs but that is in the comfort of our homes and today these bare legs left the house!!!  These stems haven’t seen the light of day outside of the beach in ages!  I have always been confident but I did not like my legs and felt too exposed without having them completely covered. This feels soooo amazing and honestly slightly scary…i was convinced everyone could see my butt all day HA!!! #exposed  So many fashion opportunities have opened up for both Jenny and I.  We both love clothes but now the options seem endless.


This leads me to my next milestone!!!  Today marked the last laser hair removal treatment on my downstairs neighbor…I call her Tina or My Lady!!!  I was chatting with my sister while driving to the appointment and that sweet angel said, do you think it will hurt this time!?  Bahahahahahahahahahah…yes girl I do!!!  This marks the 5th time I have waited nervously in the waiting room for Jennifer to lead me to my doom…uh hum I mean my future uprooted lady garden. #stopclenching #deforestation



Time to enter the torture chamber…I’m already tensing and sweating from the anticipation.  #swampass #notenoughdeoderantintheworld


I don’t know if you remember how this rolls from Laser Cats but I’ll give a quick refresher…first you Porky Pig it.  That means your most unflattering version of yourself…just that pants off!!!  Woof!  Then you hop onto the bed da da da dahhhh…


Thennnnnn…you frog your legs and pack that crotch to the brim with ice packs.  #babycold #shivermevagina


Every girls dream…am I right ladies!?! Obvi there is no pic of this…but I thought about it!  Then you wait…so that your Teeny Tina can get good and numb…because it is about to be set on fire literally…with lasers.  Oh gahhhhh what am I doing!?



The anticipation is the worst…not to mention that you are solo in a room with your attacker…


Just seems like your run of the mill medical apparatus right…not the thing that will shoot lasers into the hair folicles of your Who Ha (said like Pachino) buuuuuut that is exactly what it is! Can you say Pre Traumatic Stress!?  Is that a thing, did I just make up a new thing!?!? Maybe if I just spend some time with the laser before hand it will bond us? #immersiontherapy


Ok so then enters my hair removal therapist/facialist/I think soulmate is too strong but maybe esthetician love of my life?!/the most hilarious person/part time therapist/makes you feel amazing about yourself, Jennifer!  Love this lady…hate this laser!  Here we go..


Isn’t she the cutest!?  She bumps Beyonce, Rihanna and Nicki #lookatherbutt in the background while she assaults my va-jay.  We talk about relationships and sun signs (She’s a Taurus, I’m a Scorpio), being  formerly emotionally unavailable, what plastic surgery I’m going to need once I hit my goal (hopefully just a tummy tuck).  So fun, and exactly the distraction I need from my firey Netherlands!!!  There is no amount of ice that could make this not hurt!!! #sorryTinabutyou’llbetheprettiestgirlontheblocktommorow

That all sounds sweet right!?  But there is a certain area…in the depths of your own private Idaho where no amount of distraction keeps you from the pain…this is when I start chanting fuck fuck fuck over and over again.



She realllllllly gets in there…



This picture is so funny…I look like I’m giving birth…to a brand new vagina HEY-OHHHHH!!!

I want to run….that laser just keeps getting hotter…I told her at this point that I was prettttttt-y sure that there was a new hole in my leg!!!  I say dumb things like that to her all the time…like I wish this was over…or I think I’m done with that spot…or I think I’m going to run like seriously!  But she doesn’t falter from her purpose and mission….of reverting me to a pre pubescent hairless wonder!!! #dreamsdocometrue



I think it goes without saying that I am not a shy person.  Nothing about this situation bothers me minus the pain.  But I know that that is not how most people feel.  So I have to say, you would love Jennifer!!!  She puts you at ease and actually she can have the credit for me wearing a bare legged skirt today.  My legs are an issue for me.  My mom, dad and sister have the most beautiful legs that I have ever seen in all of my days.  I’m talking birth rite gifts here, and mine always seemed very ummmm one note…tree trunky if you will, total lack of definition and I don’t want to say deformed but odly put together maybe is the right way to say it. If I had an insecurity these gams would be it!  But three sessions ago as I Donald Ducked it on the table, Jennifer said Sara you have amazing legs.  You know when a record skips…I swear that is what I heard at that moment.  Excuse me!?!  She said, there are no saddle bags, they are long and muscular…there is nothing hanging.  Ummmm…exsqueeze me!?  Are you addressing I?!  And you know what…I hadn’t really taken stock in awhile.  Or I had always been comparing myself to my family.  I won’t have their legs, but there is nothing wrong with mine!  Oh Jennifer you wonderful human!!!  That perspective shift was exactly what I needed! What can’t this woman do?!?! What a kind gift to give to someone else…she helped me embrace the thing I hated the most.  Now we are down to the last 50 pulses with this gall blasted laser and my kitty is sizzling…



#meeee-OWWWWWWW (get it!?)

Yep, I’m pretty sure I’m dead.  Nice knowin ya world.  Oh wait, it’s over!!!  No I’m fine!  Oh thank gah!  Time to warm towel this little lady and slather her in aloe!!!  I couldn’t be happier that this was the last time and I’m so exited about the results!!!!  I can’t post a before and after of this but if I could you know I would!!! But here is a good one!  This is from the last laser post to today!


Call Jennifer today at The MedSpa @RPSC…you will fall in love. #stockholmsyndrome #jk  She is so talented and if you can find someone that can make you laugh while you are pantless on a table while they shoot fire into your business…you know they are the best at what they do!!!  She offers so many amazing service.  I booked my next facial before I left and I literally cannot wait to see her again!  Thanks Jennifer!!!  Love you so much!


Now it’s time for my post treatment treat…a naughty little non paleo soy latte to help with the post trauma of being shot in the baby maker.


I mean look at those legs!!!  Thanks for making me look and feel fabulous with everything that you do Jen! Xoxo times a mill!

Now time to sit on ice and snuggle with this coffee until my 5o shades of ouchie crocth heals!  Love y’all…hope your weekend was less painful!