road blocks

Heyyyyyyyyy! It’s Sara!!!! So, you guys have been following us for awhile now and over the last 7 months Jenny and I have drastically changed our lives in an effort to find our way to a healthy life . Together we have lost 121 pounds and we truly look and feel like different people!

The gym, cooking healthy meals at home and digging deep and finding out why we ate poorly in the first place are all a part of this success and a part of our daily lives now.

We have hit many challenges along the way…like what to do when you are out with friends and tempted (hello steak frites!)

But the progress has been amazing!!!

Soooooo, guess what I did!?! With all this progress and knowledge, this month I decided to reward myself for losing 73 pounds by….gaining 3 pounds!!!

You guys…I have been doing whatever the fuck I wanted allllllllll month long and now it’s the 18th!!! I’m not going to lie…it has been so fun and temporarily freeing…but it is also something I know how to do really well and not somewhere I want to stay. Which means at best I can maybe lose the weight I gained…hopefully! My new nightmare is that my chalkboard has a plus sign on it! I got cocky…like really cocky!!! I mean I’ve been buying all these adorable outfits which makes me think that there is no wayyyy I gained weight…look at this leather circle skirt!!!

But my body is starting to feel lumpy again and I don’t feel as beast like at the gym and I’m stuffy and not sleeping as well so I knowwwwww it’s def time to get back on track!!! But I just kept thinking…it will be fine!!! Silly rabbit…a lot of sex doesn’t burn enough calories to keep up with all those fries and the 3 batches of cookies you made in 3 weeks! (I finally found one that is healthier and amazing!!!)

But I digress…so getting back in the kitchen with Jenny and cooking felt amazing and tasted great and my body felt so much better.

Having healthier dates with Zan have been great and I’ve actually been learning how to cook sans recipe…

I am leaving Sunday for 2 weeks at the beach which could be an even slippery-er slope, but I’m not going to fold! I know that this is not new information coming from me but it has further solidified for me that this will always be a battle that sometimes I will be on top of and sometimes I will be underneath!!! It’s time to get back on top! I got myself some healthy snacks!!!

And am ready to recommit to Paleo and the gym!!! I do not want to go back here…this picture was one of the happiest days of my professional life. I was working backstage at New York Fashion Week at the Skaist-Taylor show and I was 356 puounds…my heaviest ever. I will not go back, this is a bump in the road. I ate a piece…or three pieces of pizza the other night and thought…oh shit, this is rock bottom!!! So I’m back!!!! And fucking serious!!! My mind is strong and I just have to lead it in the right direction…my body doesn’t neeeeed cookies but my mind sure did!!! I want to keep pushing through!