Feeling good

Two Meatballs: Let It Gooooo, Let it Go!

We’re back you guys and it feels so good!

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Thank you for indulging us and letting us enjoy a decadent two week mental and spiritual vacation from writing.  We were both feeling very stuck and crushed by pressure and lacking ANYTHING new or exciting to talk about.  But over the past two weeks we both really reinvested into ourselves and came out the other side feeling recharged, refreshed, refocused, reconnected, positive and powerful. We got back to our breakfast meetings!

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So now what?  We can’t go back, because we want to move forward.  Tonight Jenny came over and we discussed where we want the blog to go and what we want in life.  First we meditated together using my new favorite app Headspace and it really helped set the tone and help us be mindful and present.  Then we snuggled and chatted it up about what we’ve learned individually over the past couple of weeks.

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Here are Jenny’s revelations:

Jenny said she has turned a corner and is feeling a more positive connection with food, she doesn’t have the sugar dingers going off (no obsessive cupcake tormentors), everything doesn’t have to live so tightly in a box, I have the freedom to make the choices I want to make in peace, I want to feel good in my clothes, in my body, in my spirit, I don’t want to be number obsessed, calorie obsessed or even self obsessed as I can easily live in my own mind.  I don’t want to go over and over all the decisions I’ve made and critique them over and over.  At the end of the day I just want to be happy and I’m happiest when I’m just living in the moment; making the best decisions for my family but most importantly the best decisions for myself.  I am so grateful for all the support I have in my life.  I have the best family in the world.  I have all the knowledge to make positive decisions. #happygirlsaretheprettiest

 

Here are my revelations (this is Sara haha)

I want more balance.  I want to feel more connected in my own life.  I want to stop replacing one bad decision for another.  I want to feel my feelings not just think my thoughts, and to stop operating  outside of my own body.  Obsession is really big for me as well.  The scale has been haunting me and the unnecessary pressure that I put on myself is actually making me move further away from health.  I want to be less obsessed with the end result and more in-tuned with what is happening today. I  Want to put healthy food into my body and healthy thoughts into my mind.  I want to be less militant and more accepting of myself and others.  Everyday I want to remember how grateful I am and how happy I am.  I am so thankful for everything.  I want to keep exploring  and trying new things and meeting new people and taking care of myself.  I am so grateful I get to do this with my best friend.

 

We are so glad to be here on every level.  This is such a part of our lives now that it keeps us focused.  These last couple of days we really started reconnecting bc we knew it was time.  It just feels good.  We think about it every single day.  We both missed writing and wondered what it would be like to write again.  We both wondered what it would be like to be moving forward again.  We both find ourselves getting pumped up by reading old posts and reminiscing over old photos.  We look forward to loving our pictures again.  And motivating ourselves.   I think it’s all boiling down to progress not perfection.  Lets really take the pressure off, put the scale up for awhile and let our clothes do the talking.  Before this journey we both would have quit when it got this hard.  After all, we are learning this is so much deeper than losing weight.  But we are so committed to this life that it feels impossible to quit.  This is our life and we are very grateful.  Nobody said it would be easy.  We’ve never been in anything this long before and we both still want ti this bad, the ups , the downs, we still feel so present in this journey to conquer this road block in our life.  That in and of itself feels like a huge success.  You guys, we are still here and ready to rumble despite or in spite of our weight gains and health hurdles.  Jenny said the goal is not 135, the goal is now to find peace with the decisions that you are making and I couldn’t agree more.  Health is our goal.  Happiness is our goal.  Feeling good in our own skin is our goal.  Inspiring ourselves and others is our goal.  Kicking ass and taking names is our goal.  Really getting to know ourselves is our goal.  Living life limitlessly is our goal.  Being active is our goal.  Putting healthy things into our body is our goal.

 

We’ve done things we could have never imagined.  We became Fleet Feet personalities, we bared our souls to strangers, we had nothing and we shared everything, we got naked and put our actual weights out into the world, we have continued to work out no matter what, our meatball nation feels like they really know us even if we haven’t met, we have been so honest about everything, we did group fitness which seemed so scary before, we juiced  we gave up pasta and bread and sweets, we found out so much about the deeper underlying issues, we watch documentaries on the toxic chemicals in food, I got sober, we’re not running or hiding from our own life.  We put such limits on ourselves, we were so controlling and missing out on so much.  We have really accepted ourselves and the challenge.  We are strong, we are unashamed and we are changed people.  We both had anxiety about any social situations (for Jenny it was her body and for me it was anything new; would I fit into the booth!?).  Now we are so much more comfortable and free in public.  We now have a different dialogues in our minds or with our families. London asks how different foods are going to affect her.  Jenny and Brandon are in a better place.  I feel like I am such a more empathetic person and so willing and wanting to experience all that life has to offer.

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So in closing, we have changed.  Thank you for growing, moving and changing with us.  We have learned that our boundaries need to be flexible and changing.  We want to get better everyday. We love you so much and we can’t wait to keep exploring this! Cheers to the future!

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Two Meatballs: Can You Say Soooore!?!?

Today we were reunited with our beloved trainer! #thankgoodness  We have literally only seen Sandra once this year before today between the weather, illness and charity walks! I’m not going to lie…I was really nervous about today!!!  Pneumonia really knocked the wind out of me…get it?!?! And it has been a tough go building my stamina back up.  Sweet Jenny came to pick me up this morning! #lovethisgirl

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I shared my fears with Jenny…I told her I was scared I was going to pass out on the treadmill.  So I had to act it out, but I couldn’t stop laughing!

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Time to loosen up!  Get back in the game!

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We had a great hug fest when we walked in.  Sandra is such a part of our Meatball journey and we realllllly missed her.  Then we hopped on the treadmill for a warmup! We both survived #notdeadyet Time for a circuit in the little gym! We alternated between 2 exercises on each circuit, then switched for four rounds!  First circuit was chest press with two 20 pound weights, 15 reps and the other person did squat wall balls with a 15 pound ball.

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Yuck…i look awful! Haha, Jenny, your butt looks great! #powersquat This was harrrrd! Circuit number two was in the big gym and we alternated between ropes for 45 seconds and a back row, 15 reps. Again we did this circuit for 4 rounds.

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Round Three was back in the small gym and consisted of boos ball sit ups for a minute and kettle bell swings for 45 seconds.  Spoiler alert, 4 ROUNDS!

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I had to swap out the kettle bells for another arm exercise bc I ran out of air!  We stayed in here for our next duo.  We switched between slam balls with a 15 pound ball and squats to military presses with 2-15 pound weights!

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Now, back to the big gym for our final circuit!  We did exercise ball wall sits and alternated with a weird run in place/punching bag slaps.  You’re never going to guess…we did it for 4 rounds! 😉

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It was really hard, but it was so great to be back.  Sandra is so motivational!  She kept reminding us to do one rep at a time, to make each movement count, to breath through it and to dig deep.  We love Sandra so much and our journey was so off track while we were apart.  Sandra, we can never thank you enough!  You have been such a huge contributor to our success and we cannot wait to get back in the swing of things.  Thank you thank you thank you , Love you love you love you.

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We are both  still up from our lowest, I guess we love a challenge.  But my client Sarah was so right. We do better together.  We feel better when we eat healthy and when we work out!  We need each other and our support group.  I’m sick of hearing myself say it, but we are finally back on track and dammit it feels great.  Now, if we could just remember this! Xoxo

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