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Two Meatballs: Spilling My Guts

Hello World!!!!!  Sara here.  It’s safe to say at this point, when you don’t here from me, I’m not eating well!

I have a deep burning desire to share everything in my life, the good, the bad, the ugly, the vulnerable, the love that I have pouring from my heart each day, all in an effort to truly connect with others.  My greatest desire is to rip myself open and let the world see who I really am and my greatest hope is that by doing that others will feel a safe place to do the same.  I desire this level of intimacy with others.  I delight when someone will let me in and go far below the surface in to the deep seas of emotion,  truth and understanding.  I want to know how everyone ticks.  I like to explore how I work, what I’m really feeling and why and to do it without judgment. And I love telling on myself!

But I also crave control and safety.  So I am happy to shout my truths and epiphanies when things are going well.  I am comfortable “reflecting” on the tough times, the unwise decisions, the deep, dark thoughts and self judgments and even misguided disgust with myself…AFTER THE FACT.   But you guys, when I am living it, I want to retreat as far as possible.  How deep can I go into my self, where is my safety net, how many walls can I build to protect myself, how many times can I convincingly say, “I’m fine, everything is fine” to myself and others?! “I’m eating this ice cream because I want it” … but I’m eating it again and again because I’m now hooked on it and the temporary high I get  and now I’m eating it because I’m sad and disappointed that I’m straying and now I’m having a hard time coping with my feelings and I’m not even enjoying it anymore. #spiral

Luckily this bout of partly cloudy, shitty, weird ritualistic eating was shorter than in the past.  I think my self-awareness is rising.  I can identify the spiral quicker.  Because my positivity is so high, it feels soul crushing to feel sadness….especially the kind that takes your breathe away.  When I feel myself getting out of control I feel unsafe.  And when I feel unsafe I make even more poor eating choices to feel safe!?My normal MO is to comfort myself with food and it has been since the tornado. Since I was 6 years old, I have found the greatest of comfort in eating all of my feelings and suppressing them.  Shoving them down with each and every bite. Oh, are those tears rising, better shove it down with fries.  Is that fear creeping in, grab a bowl of ice cream.  Anxiety knocking on the door, nope just Little Debbie thank goodness!

This isn’t new information if you read the blog, but my level of understanding grows each time I open this emotional box.  When I peel another layer off of this onion that is my fear of my own dark side, I feel more open and free to really feel, experience the sadness, look at it, identify where it is coming from.  In these moments of clarity it all feels worth it.  However, leading up to this, filling my body full of all of its inflammation loving enemies (dairy, sugar, fried foods, grains, nothing is off limits) my self judgment comes in like it’s own tornado.  And the crazy thing is logically, I know the outcome.  I know this story so well:

Step 1: Something unsavory happens. (Break up, grieving, I made a bad choice, I’m overwhelmed)

Step 2: I don’t like how I’m feeling right now. I just want to feel happy.

Step 3: Ice Cream or French Fries will fix it.

Step 4: Momentary Relief (that is unsustainable)

Step 4: Try again, that ice cream made us feel better yesterday, so logic says eat it every day to feel great. #addict

Step 5: Stop grocery shopping, cooking, cleaning…completely.

Step 6: Order in food, alone, spend more time by yourself, eating things that you don’t want people to know that you are eating again, because you can’t stand the thought of disappointing people.

Step 7: Now I’m ______________ (sad, mad, scared, out of control, unsafe) ANNNNNNND I feel like shit.

Step 8: Gain Weight from misguided “comfort”.

Step 9: Start Spiraling down a black whole of avoidance, blinders, the art of distraction….all of the Candy Crush.

Step 10: Avoid things that actually make you happy and help you get to your goals.

Step 11: Time for the mean, damaging self talk and self judgment as I lay in bed trying to sleep, hoping tomorrow will be better, but not believing that I can change.

Step 12: The pinnacle…feeling hopelessly unworthy.

This is when I find the light, thank goodness.  I put my oxygen mask on before the plane crash and I ask for the help that I need.  And my hope is that this time frame will get smaller and smaller each time something in my life happens and these feelings start creeping up.  It is so hard for me to identify my depression as it is happening.  It is the quintessential gradually, then suddenly.  One day I’m telling myself that it’s perfectly fine to occasionally indulge and the next day I hit an emotional rock bottom.  And the major reason why this happens is that my body gets riddled with candida and changes my thought patterns.  The inflammation affects me in an unreal way.  I literally am what I eat.

I want to continue to grow and learn and evolve and accept my own feelings and beyond that, identify my holding patterns in real time.  I am so comfortable with other people’s sadness and uncertainty.  I spend most of my days trying to empower and uplift others and when things are good, this applies to me as well.  So it is a very disconnecting feeling to not give that same power to myself when I’m in the spiral.  So I thought it might help to re-write my story today.  I think it helps to have an actual plan, clear intentions for how I would like to adapt in the future and this seemed like the best place to share it, with people whom I love and who have shown me nothing but love and acceptance at every turn.

Step 1: Something unsavory happens.

Step 2: I have a feeling that takes over (sadness, anger, frustration).

Step 3: I acknowledge my feelings without judgment.

Step 4: I give myself permission to feel my real feelings.

Step 5: I accept my feelings and try to look deeper in to the why behind.

Step 6: I talk about it with someone I trust with my heart.

Step 7: Comfort myself with this powerful statement: It’s ok to feel _______.

Step 8: Cry.

Step 9: Reassure myself that things will be ok, I won’t feel like this forever.

Step 10: Do something that makes me happy…listen to music, cook, sing, read a book, write in my journal, lean in to my loving family, talk to my friends, share my experience as it is happening so that I don’t feel alone.

I feel so excited about the future.  It is too much pressure to try and be happy all of the time.  It is unrealistic, shit happens and I have so many coping mechanisms that are positive and will actually make me feel better.  Eating can make me feel better.  When I make healthy choices, my body rejoices.  There are so many things in this world to find pleasure in and I can also find pleasure in being true to myself.

I want to express that the deep sadness that I find myself in in the end comes from spiraling down with comfort eating.  Not making good decisions lands me in a place that I absolutely hate.  Now it’s seeing the truth.  Bad decisions don’t make me a shit person.

Thank you for letting me pour my heart out.  On to the love, light and acceptance..and cooking!  I hope that you are having a great summer.  As always I missed y’all oh so much.


Your loving meatball Sara

My summer has had so many highlights beyond my avoidance of feelings, so here is a visual catch up.  Talk again soon?


Two Meatballs: Gratefulness leads to Happiness and Happiness leads to Love!!!

Hello world!!!  Sara here.  Lately I have been feeling an overwhelming sense of gratitude. Simultaneously, I’ve never felt so happy or more in love with everything and everyone!


All week long people have been telling me that I am radiating happiness and I am here for it!!!  #thankskelsey #thanksmichelle


About a week ago, I ordered and started writing in my Five Minute Journal…


What is The Five Minute Journal you ask…oh my gosh thank you for asking!!!  It is  a practice in gratitude.  It is a guided journal that you write in during the morning and evening.  You name things that you are grateful for, things that would make the day great and your mantra in the morning.  In the evening you reflect on what made the day amazing and what could have made it even better and you phrase everything in the positive…for example, if getting up earlier would have made my day better, I write, “I wake up before my alarm goes off.”

Now I am already a positive person, but putting things in such bright and powerful terms changes the way that you think and more importantly to me, the way I feel.  And writing down the same mantra everyday really helps you “fake it until you become it” as Amy Cuddy says!  Which by the way if you haven’t watched her TedTalk, it’s life changing!!!

The mantra that I write for myself every.single.day is:

I am healthy mentally, physically, spiritually and emotionally.  I maintain healthy boundaries with myself and others.

There is something about this repetition and me writing it down that makes it feel so real.  I feel so healthy in so many ways.  I feel like I used to really struggle identifying, putting it to place and maintaining boundaries, but now saying that I do all of these things over and over again puts it in the forefront of my mind daily.

It has also changed the dialogue with my boyfriend, family, friends, co-workers and clients.  Since I am constantly thinking about what is going right in my life and what I am grateful for, I am putting good, geniune energy in to the world which is contagious.


Before when my boyfriend asked me how my day was, I might be tempted to start with the thing that was the least pleasant…which is also contagious.  Then we either: start a bitch fest which only leads to more toxicity in the air, or his positivity (he makes me look like a realist) would try and make it better by telling me “At least (fill in the blank) didn’t happen” which would only piss me off since it made me feel like he didn’t hear me or was devaluing my experience…which would lead to a fight or uncomfortable silence on my part, which would only make a bad day worse.


Now I tell him the best parts about my day and I feel like he rises to the challenge and tells me what made his day so great.  We have had an amazing week.  We are really spending quality time together and we both feel so grateful to have each other in our lives…guys, I’ve never been this in love before!!!


We’ve been going on all the dates, hanging out with my parents, going grocery shopping , cooking together and this week, making pinterest boards full of healthy desserts to try together.


This last one is for banana crunch cookies…to die for!!! 

(It wouldn’t let me paste the link separately haha I don’t know why…just click on the sentence above for this recipe!)

In fact, things have been going so well that we took a huge step this week and I met some of his kids!!! I couldn’t have been more nervous, but Ben is always great at reminding me that it doesn’t have to be perfect and you know what; everything went great! I built the pressure of this moment up so much in my mind that it felt really overwhelming, but it couldn’t have been more normal and adorable!  I am grateful and honored that he wanted me to meet them!!! #theyarethecutest #ilovehimsomuch#hopefullyIwillbelessshynexttime

I love continuing to go down this road and getting to know each other better and deeper and letting the love wash over us.

I’ve been super grateful at work!!!! I just love my work family so much!!!  I got to be a part of all the funnest classes this week, I got to see and learn from my old pal Nikki, dig deeper with my team, help stylists find their stride, celebrate the victories, I got to do amazing hair and bond with my clients even more, see my meatball…who could ask for anything more?!


I’ve felt so excited about my career and my weight loss that I’ve even been fine-tuning my own brand!

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I’m just going to go full on crazy cat lady in this pinafore and I’m obsessed!!!


Another thing I’ve been super grateful for lately is my farm share from Split Acre Farm!


I feel so connected to nature, North Carolina, eating hyper local and supporting Joe and Lisbeth’s sustainable farm journey as they support my journey to health with their farm fresh produce.  I love opening a box each week and getting creative.  Using ingredients I’ve never tried before…this weeks box had green garlic in it and a recipe for green garlic dressing…tried it and loved it!!!!!!!!!!!!  This is keeping me on my toes and keeping cooking interesting! Can’t wait to see what is coming this week! Here is the recipe from Joe and Lisbeth:


I also have never felt closer to or more in love with my family…which makes me burst with gratitude.  I have been called a “Pollyanna” or “Brown Noser” my whole life because of statements like this, but I couldn’t be being any more authentic to who I am.  This week we celebrated Chase the Great Turning Eight at Kanki…the Beard traditions continue!!!


The night was amazing…I ate as healthy as I could which basically means no rice My only regret…sitting so far away from my sister!!!! #hikelly


And we spent the night laughing and celebrating this sweet angel!


Chase is the sweetest, funnest, funniest, most loving snuggle bug of all times.  He is a taurus and he does what he wants and gives zero fox about it.


Just look at the face!!!! Happy birthday twinnie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Family time means so much to me…so when I woke up too early Saturday morning, I reached out to my mom to see what she was up to.  We decided to have breakfast together on her porch with dad and I brought the coffee!!!

20180505_100343.jpgIMG_20180505_104122_702.jpgWhat a great way to start the day with the people I cherish.  Later we had a cookout and I brought my Split Acre Farm salad with Green Garlic Dressing!!!

IMG_20180505_164404_578.jpgDad manned the grill, mom made the best potatoes and guacamole of life and we had a feast!

IMG_20180505_173559_612.jpgIMG_20180505_182741_367.jpgIt helps tremendously when everyone is on the same healthy page.  We were stuffed. But we spent the rest of the night snuggling and talking about better communication and flowers!  My mom’s garden is giving me allllllllllllll the inspiration for my newly found green thumb!


After a full day spent together, they sent me home with some beautiful peonies…


Which I put outside on my front porch or as I am now referring to it as my secret garden.  I had breakfast out here this morning just to enjoy the view!


I’ve also had all the phone dates with Kelly, Katie and Jenny!!!  My world feels so happy and content!!!

I am grateful for so many things and my amazing life.  I couldn’t be happier and more at peace and I am more in love than I ever have been before.  I love you all and I’m so grateful you are taking this journey with us.  WE love you the most.



Two Meatballs: Split Acre Farm to Table!!!

Hello world!!!  Last week ended with a bang!  I just love celebrating my mom!  What you didn’t know was that I was in agony that day.  I had a cyst that just wouldn’t quit and left me feeling like this…


All night long I thought, should I go to the hospital!?!  But my practical side said, wait until the morning and go to your doctor!!!  Which is exactly what I did.  I love my doctor, she is one of my longest time clients and I feel like she is a rare person in the medical field because she actually looks at me and she finds a way to make the experience personal.  Long story short, I had a cone shaped infected cyst and had to go in for a procedure.  I was out of work and out of it in general until Thursday.  When things like  this happen, these are always the moments where you question your lifestyle change.  Not because you don’t believe in it, just because it’s a lot of effort and you don’t feel your best.  Ordering food is so easy and cooking (shopping, chopping, etc) really takes effort.  But I feel so different now and honestly, I’ve never been so grateful for leftovers!


People always try to help me and I used to always push them off…I didn’t want to be a bother.  But now I am so grateful for help when I need it.

My parents came through in the biggest way!!!  They cooked me food so I could be ready to go back to work.


My mom helped me clean and kept me company.  Both my parents happily drove me to appointments when I couldn’t drive. (Thank you will never be enough, but thank you so much!  I love y’all so much and am so grateful for everything that y’all do for me to help me stay focused and moving forward #mycuprunethover!!!) Jenny brought me a coffee, lunch and company.  My sweet sister checked in on me frequently and so did my friends.  Ben brought me flowers and  all the cuddles!!!


I reached out to all my people for things that I could do to heal quicker and everyone obliged!

So what does this mean!?  It means that  by midweek, instead of looking at the nothingness in my fridge like this…


and then housing pizza straight to my face like I used to when these situations would arise and ultimately feeling worse because then you start dreaming of awful food…


I actually ate healthy things that will heal my body and followed my new lifestyle change as an actual lifestyle.  And thanks to some pre-planning and having waffles in the freezer, breakfast was a breeze.


I followed the advice of those that I trust and I took the help that was offered to me so lovingly. I rested. I let my body heal so that I could go back to work in one piece instead of sad, broken little pieces.  I listened to my body and I listened to my doctor.  And now, a week later, I am feeling so much better and not depleted.  Thank you to everyone who reached out!

On another note, some really exciting  things happened this week!!!!  First, I got this email…


And a couple of days later, I received my first produce delivery box from Split Acre Farm!!!!!


My sister Kelly and I decided to split a box.  In the past when I have gotten a produce box, it was too much for me to eat in one week before it all went bad.  And I love sharing, especially with Kelly!!!  I opened up the box to find…


Lettuce, green onions, bok choy, spinach and swiss chard…something I’ve never eaten before!!!  I had very little energy until yesterday, but I made a Pinterest board called Split Acre Farm (@meatballsgetfit) to get myself excited about all these ingredients!

The first thing I felt able to tackle was that beautiful red leaf lettuce!!!  I chopped it up with heirloom carrots, tossed with Primal Kitchen Caesar Dressing and I used my new Air Fryer to make radish croutons!

IMG_20180428_161544_327.jpgI ate this with fried eggs, sausage and a giant pickle!!! What a freaking difference fresh ingredients make!!!  This salad was delicious!!!  Y’all, those radishes were everything!  I have also made some ribbon fries and roasted nuts in the air fryer!


Then I used some of my own home grown basil (squeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!) to make slow roasted cherry tomatoes preserved in olive oil!


I tweaked a recipe by Heartbeet Kitchen:

2 pints heirloom cherry tomatoes

3/4 cup high quality olive oil

6 basil leaves, torn

8 cloves of garlic, smashed with knife

1/2 tsp kosher salt

fresh ground black pepper

Heat oven to 225 lay tomatoes on rimmed baking sheet, add olive oil, basil, garlic and s&p, toss to combine, making sure that everything is coated so that it won’t burn.  Cook 2 hours 20 minutes, stirring about 3 times throughout.

This is flipping delicious!  My mind is exploding thinking of all of the possibilities!  Today, I ate it with brunch!


And I haven’t stopped cooking!  I don’t want to wasted any of this beautiful food.  So on my farm to table menu:

Sweet potato noodles with spinach




I deviated from this recipe and added coconut aminos and fish sauce!  But look at that beautiful, farm fresh spinach and green onions!  So good!

Swiss Chard with raisins, pine nuts and Porkitos from Nom Nom Paleo


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Now this was my first rodeo with swiss chard and I’ve got to say…big fan!!!  This was so savory which you know is my favorite!!!  Here is the recipe for the Porkitos!!!



So crispy and salty…my dream!

Then I made the yummiest bok choy EVER!!!


I winged this:

1 tbsp sesame oil

1 lb bok choy

4 cloves of garlic

3 handfuls of spinach

4 chicken sausages

2 tbsp Thai Almond Sauce

3 green onions chopped

1/2 tbsp sesame seeds

1/2 tsp kosher salt


Heat up the sesame oil over medium heat in a non stick pan, add garlic then bok choy, add salt now…when they start to wilt, add spinach.  Then add your almond sauce and stir everything around.  Chop up chicken sausage and toss in the mix.  Reduce heat and cook with lid on until everything combines. Probably 7 minutes total (if your sausage is precooked, if not cook longer) Add green onions and sesame seeds and go to town!

I have officially used everything in my box and I have healthy delicious food for the next couple of days.  I cannot WAIT for my next box and my flower delivery to start in May!  Thank you Split Acre Farm  Joe and Lisbeth, thank y’all for contributing to my healthy lifestyle!!!  And thank you to everyone for all the positive vibes and actual help this week when I was down for the count.

What a beautiful day it is today.  I had the pleasure of writing outside today.


I am grateful for so many things.  Thank you for reading and sharing this journey with me.  Can’t wait to see you next week. Xoxo


Two Meatballs: Self(ie) Help!!!

Hello World!!!  Sara here!  This week I got a violent but quick little stomach bug and had to miss a day of work for the first time this year.


Which is a BIG deal for me.  I made it until almost April without getting sick!!!!!! Wahoooo!!!!


In general, I’m feeling SO MUCH BETTER IN EVERY WAY!!!! But I am not immune to viruses and sometimes you catch the bug that’s going around!  I hate missing work.  First off,  I love what I do!!!  I love my bosses, my team, my meatball, my clients…basically everything and everyone!!!


I am also REALLY busy at work, which I love,  so I hate not being able to come in.  With clients and mentoring, it is so important for me to be present…literally!


Last year (probably more like the past 3 years…30ish years!?) I really struggled with my health.  I felt really awful a lot…especially with my knee pain pre and some post surgery.  So, to turn this corner  and have these long stretches of great health, feels really inspiring and makes me so hopeful for an even healthier future!

So leading up to the bug, I went shopping at Aldi without a grocery list last Sunday, so I bought from memory things for chicken chow mein!!!  Have I told y’all I love shopping and cooking!? So good!


This week was also the beginning of Mega season at work which is a fun and busy time, so this week I for sure needed to meal prep!!!  Somebody look at all this yummy!


I am doing this round of inspiring meetings with all of the stylists by myself (all the more reason to bounce back quickly from sickness) and I love it!!!  I love getting this 45 minute solo time with each and every Sammie Cole stylist.  Y’all know I love 1 on 1 time!  So Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday flewwwwww by!  I started feeling bad on Wednesday, but Thursday morning I just couldn’t even stand up straight.  I tried to weather the storm, but I lost haha.  I called in and rescheduled my clients and spent the rest of the day on my bathroom floor.  It took me until 4:30 in the afternoon to get downstairs and attempt to drink water.  I was so exhausted and terrified to eat anything.  But self care is so important so I went to bed super early so I could get ALLLL the rest. The next morning I got up and got ready for work.  I felt a lot better!!!  And also so glad to be out of my house and back at work!  The only food I had in my house was…you guessed it Kelly Whitley…salad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  And boiled eggs and bacon…barf!  So I grabbed a mini bag of cashews and headed out the door! I braved really eating once I got off work!  No picture of the sad bacon salad hahahahahah!  I went to bed sooooo early again #selfcare and then Saturday morning I woke up….SO TINNNNY!!!!


I hated being sick, but I will take this silver lining. I spent this weekend taking it easy!  I finally ate a real meal!


I had not gone grocery shopping yet though!!!

I also had some me time…investing some time into spicing up my hair and makeup routine…something I love to do and that is long overdue! #poet


Now that I have this beautiful makeup space I just want to be practicing and trying new things all of the time.  I used to be MACsclusive, but lately I’ve been wanting change, so I ordered some things to try from Glossier and Fenty Beauty and I’m OBSESSED with all of it!  Also, I’ve been watching ALLLLLL of the tutorials online.  I was doing EVERYTHING wrong before!

On to the Self(ie) Care rant/portion of  your regularly scheduled post: Is it hard for anyone else in their 30’s and beyond to take a damn selfie?!  I feel like I can’t get the light right, I don’t know how to get my phone out of the pic and I always have one eye that won’t cooperate and my crooked smile!?  I mean where does my top lip even go????  When I look in the mirror as I’m taking the pic, I’m like girl, you look great and then I look at the pic and I’m like HOWWWWWWWWWW!?!? And before you say anything like, Sara, that picture is lovely….(thank you!) well it was the 700th one I took!!!!


So give your girl some tips on how to nail it sooner if you’ve got ideas! Here are more examples…the winners and all of my fun weekend hairstyles:


I’m newly obsessed with space buns!!!  So on brand for me, why haven’t I been wearing these every single day!?  Then two dutch braids, then dutch braids into a bun and then post braid beachy waves!!!  Loving all my options!

What it took to get there AKA The Losersss:


Where am I looking!?  Why do I have dead shark eyes?! Why is it so hard to get a pic of the back of your head!?  What is that face!?!? And honestly I delete the really bad ones!  I didn’t know this was going to end up a post focus, so I now regret that because the really bad ones were WAY WORSE and so funny! But here are some cringy ones:


The living deadest eyes…both of my eyes are failing me in pic 2 but my boobs showed up for the party…and I look like the biggest creep in the third one or like I’m farting! Ewwwww!!!! Ok back to reality…

I also spent Saturday with you guessed it…my mom!!!  We went to Sola’s pop up market

and almost fell down this little incline hahahahahaha!!!  We survived and found the cutest stuff! Don’t worry Joelle, I paid down my HVAC first!

Mom and I got matching earrings from Windblown Jewelry…cutest packaging ever and I got the kids some hilarious cards and bath bombs for Easter!  We leave for the beach in less than a week!!!!  Then we went grocery shopping because even I get tired of breakfast salads!!!  We decided to try Lidl and you guysssss!  It was great!


I got so much for $66!!! I even got some fresh flowers, which y’all know I live for!


I will for sure be back!  Mom left to go home and sew and I lumped around until Jenny came over!!!


Even with SnapChat I have a dead eye!!!!!!!!!!!!!  We had so much fun!  We had Guasaca for dinner, my new weekend ritual and we watched stand up comedy, tutorials, choreography videos, fantasized about new furniture, talked about meatballs….we did it all!  I got so much Jenny time and it was amazing!

Then Sunday morning I woke up, put gym clothes on and surprised my dad at the gym! Talk about self care!!!!!!!!!!


The look on his face when I walked in was priceless…I was the last person on earth he expected to see!  I gotta get to the gym more.  We had so much fun together and it felt great to work out…I have been wanting to do it, but not actually doing it for sometime now!  Then mom made the living best breakfast:


I mean is there anything better than your mom’s cooking!?  Then I got to see my boyfriend for a little while which was so nice and then I spent the rest of the day until this very moment cooking and doing laundry!  This week on the menu: Spaghetti squash chow mein, egg roll meatballs and chicken thighs in a mushroom sauce!!!

Self care is a new concept that I am really starting to grasp.  I have to make the time to cook for myself every week.  I need/want to work out.  I want to see my family and friends.  I love learning new things and exploring new places. Going to bed early is a gift.  Listening to what my body/mind/soul/spirit needs and obliging! And of course, learning to take a good selfie…it will happen one day right!?!  Until next time…I love you all so much.



Two months ago vs yesterday…feeling so different!

Two Meatballs: Snow Thank You!!!

Hello world, Sara here!!!  Guyyyyyyys, where the hell is SPRING!?!?  This meme is everything right now:


Last week when we last spoke I was making what ended up being maybe my favorite meal ever…or at least for right now #ilovefavorites Potsticker burgers, butternut squash fries and asian coleslaw! All of the recipes are on our Pinterest page with is: meatballsgetfit and they are under the board “today 2”.


I also treated myself to some disposable gloves for the kitchen…have we talked about my obsession with not getting salmonella!?


These were a life saver (LITERALLY) when mixing the raw turkey for the burgers!!!

Then Monday, out of nowhere, it snowed in Raleigh!!!


When I was a kid, there was no more exciting news in this world than the possibility of snow.  I would glue myself to the tv to watch for snowclosures…just waiting to see Wake County scroll by.  As an adult…I do NOT feel the same.  First of all “snow” in the south is usually ice.  We aren’t prepared, we don’t know how to drive (as anyone who did not grow up here but lives here now will tell you repeatedly) and honestly….it’s March, enough with this shit!  My mom loves snow and I know so many others who still delight in this weather, so this ins’t meant to squash your love.  But when you work in a commission field, your want to be open and to have clients who can make it in is high!!!  Luckily, the snow ended up just being beautiful and totally gone the next day.  Sooooo, all that bitching for nothing hahaha!  Ben came over and we enjoyed the beautiful snow globeish flakes and a healthy, delicious classic: Korean Beef!!!


Ben loves ALL the sriracha….and it was cold so it was a great way to warm up.  This meal is so comfy and so incredibly easy to make, which I really appreciate now that I cook all the time.  Tuesday was sunny and beautiful and it was hard to believe that the day before was dumping sweet little buckets of snow.  Work was amazing and then I came home to cook another weeknight favorite: Spicy ground turkey and green beans!


Which became an instant Wednesday night date night classic!  I added a spring mix salad with pine nuts and Tessemae’s Ranch dressing to beef it up since I had already been eating on it for a few meals!  I also saw Terri from Structural Wisdom on Wednesday, my structural integratist/therapist/shaman and I just love her.  I feel like I’ve been taking everything really personally lately and that isn’t always like me.


So we talked it through and decided that I suppressed my feelings for so long that I may just be trying to sift through my actual feelings and she gave me some great coping mechanisms!  Plus we worked on my constantly twisted body and working out the kinks.  I feel so amazing when I leave Terri, my body feels better and stronger and my heart and soul do as well!  She always helps me look at myself and how I contribute to the situation and what I can do differently.  #loveyouterri


Then Thursday rolled around…how do the weeks fly by so fast now!?!  Work was amazing and again, flew by but I’m grateful that I got to meet with my meatball! #hijenny


And then after work I did something that I haven’t done in TWO YEARS…I went to a yoga class…at a new studio!  I have really been struggling to get my butt in gear with moving my body.  I was talking about it on Wednesday and my friend Denise said, come to yoga with me.  She proactively got her phone out and we picked a class I thought I could handle…restorative flow.  Yoga has been on my brain literally for two years.  My insecurities show up in weird ways.  I don’t like going back to something when I’ve gained weight.  Now let me clarify that I realize that this is BAT SHIT CRAZY!  Honestly I’ve needed yoga so desperately, but my nerves just wouldn’t let me go.  I love feeling strong and capable and when I backslide I have a really hard time showing up again.  But the fact that we signed up for a class the next night didn’t give me much time to stress or back out.  I found a cute outfit which always makes me feel better, brought my clothes to work, changed after my last client and met Denise at Yoga Inspired off of Lead Mine and Sawmill!  My client Christine had been telling my about how much she loved this place and a lot of my co-workers had gone, so I knew it was going to be great.  I ran in to Denise’s friend and the owner of the studio, Anil as soon as I walked up!  He had a great calm energy meanwhile,  I couldn’t have had more pent up nervous energy!


The space was beautiful and the class was everything.  I even ran in to my client buddy Christine who had told me I should try it out! #fate

I really took for granted though that I haven’t spent much time on a wooden floor on my knees since my knee surgery and it was intense!!!  But what I love about yoga is that you can do you if you need to.  At times I just stood up to take the pressure off, but I for sure need to get some knee pads before I go next time!  I had forgotten all about my yoga breathing, setting intentions, breathing through poses!!! I can’t wait to go back.  I’ll be more upfront next time about my limitations so that I can know what the alternative poses are!!!  Thanks so much for a great class Anil and thank you so much Denise for bringing me back to something I love.  You made it so easy to say yes! Xoxo can’t wait to do it again!


Then wouldn’t you know it, it was already Friday.  I am the Director of Mentoring at Samuel Cole Salon as well as being behind the chair.  I work with an associate everyday and I am in charge of teaching them everything I know.  I am so grateful to be in this position, I have had the joy and pleasure of working so closely with most of my team at the salon.  The relationship that you build working so closely with someone is a dream come true for me.  I love watching the associates learn, progress, grow, become stylists, get promoted…etc…I love it all.  Friday happened to be my last day with sweet Zoey before she moves on the her new mentors and when I came in, this was on my station!


A hand written/painted card with the most thoughtful and kind words and a beautiful mason jar of fresh flowers #myfavorite in my favorite color!  Zoey, I am going to miss working with you every day, but I love seeing how much you’ve grown and can’t wait to see you on the floor!  Love you!!!


And just like that it was Saturday morning, off to acupuncture with my mom!  So relaxing!!!  She thought me how to do a Gua Sha facial to help me with my rosacea and I’m so excited to commit and see the results…this is my official before pic!


Somebody look at those rosy cheeks…and say goodbye to them!  I made lunch for me and mom after our session: Egg Roll in a Bowl!!!


Then my sister, my nephews and myself met at our parents for a cook out! I have been on a real breakfast salad kick lately…

So naturally, I brought a salad!!!


IT WAS DELICIOUS!!!!  I took at bag of spring mix salad and layered in shredded carrots, diced tomatoes, diced shallots, minced garlic, pickled jalapeños, avocados, toasted pine nuts and Tesserae’s Ranch (so good and made with great ingredients)!!!  The cookout was a blast and super healthy:


Mom made loaded baked sweet potatoes with ghee, crumbled bacon, chives and spring onions.  Kelly brought Italian sausage, chicken wings and hot dogs and her and dad cooked them to blackened perfection on the grill along with peppers and onions!  So good and look at all that green for St. Patty’s day!  We had a blast hanging out together and unlike the beginning of the week, the weather was GORGEOUS!  As you all know, I love my family.  I love that we can eat healthy together and just enjoy being together.  We are headed to the beach in a couple of weeks and I literally can’t wait for all the togetherness!!!!

And for once, I took zero pictures… I lived in the moment and snuggled all my boos!  Then I turned the amazing leftover salad bits in to breakfast this morning!


I then started laundry, got a mani with my main squeeze Lee and had my first Aldi shopping experience!  I had been a little extravagant lately and I need to reign in my spending and pay off this damn HVAC bill!  I saw a video on Facebook and the lady made it seem like you were insane if you DIDN’T shop here and save money.


I got allllll of this for $35!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Two kinds of meat, two kinds of nuts, all of the produce!!!!!  So excited to save money and get all of the things I need to stay on track.  I’m going to start cooking right after I publish this…on the menu for the beginning of the week: Chicken Chow Mein and another round of Spicy ground turkey and green beans..I just didn’t get enough last week!  Then it is off to see Black Panther again with the fam, so flipping excited!!!!!!!!!!!

Lesson learned, try new/old things again!!!  Do the things your heart is telling you to do…you can always go back!  And as always, spend the time with the ones you love!!!  One final food for thought:


Until next week!!! Xoxo

Two Meatballs: Art You Kidding ME?!?

Hello world, Sara here!!! What a great week it’s been!!! After I posted last week, Jenny came over and we did our favorite thing, talked and snuggled forever!


Thank goodness for SnapChat filters…this was not a pretty day haha! While she was over, I made us raspberry turmeric smoothies…so tart and delish!


Then I did my cooking for the week!

This week I made another migas scramble without the rotisserie chicken this time, bacon, spicy roasted sweet potato wedges, roasted cabbage with spinach, mushrooms and chicken sausage, burrito bowls with guacamole and a tuscan chicken bake!!!  Work was amazing, I celebrated International Women’s Day,

#hisarah, spent time with my boo and then, I felt like I blinked and the weekend was almost here!

Thursday night I stopped by my parents house after work.  Kelly and the kids were there too!  Kelly told mom about a craft fair at the State Farmer’s Market and they decided to go.  They sweetly asked me and told me that they were going to get going at 8 am.  Now 8 isn’t like the earliest time ever, but I like to be lazy on Saturdays!!!!  So I made a face…


And politely declined.  Mom and Kelly do all kinds of fun things together that just aren’t my jam…The Christmas Parade, antiquing…you know!  And it wasn’t even that I don’t like crafts…it was just the early morning thing.  Something that I know to be true about myself is that since my life with work and all of my outside of work appointments is so scheduled, sometimes I have a hard time committing to actual plans…even when I want to do them!  But the more I thought about it, the more I wanted to go!  I love my family, I love crafts and I HATE TO MISS OUT! So Friday afternoon after another amazing facial with Kat from Rosehips Studios, I called my mom and asked if I could spend the night.  I love a sleepover and I knew that if I were already there I would go on their adventure!  We had such a fun sleepover; we had Guasaca for dinner…


we watched a documentary on the Avett Brothers, listened to music, watched SNL reruns and enjoyed each others company!  The next morning mom made the yummiest breakfast…


Then, Kelly picked us up and we were off.  I was instantly glad I said yes!!! We got coffee (Starbucks for me and mom, Cup of Joe for Kelly) and got to the craft fair in no time!  It was FREEEEEEZING and a little windy.  But don’t you just love the Farmer’s Market??!!  I love looking at the fresh produce, the herbs and plants…fantasizing about my non- existent indoor garden!  But this day…there was ALL OF THE ART! My mom, sister and I all have a deep love for the arts.  We love movies, books, music, plays, arts, crafts…you name it we love it.  I sometimes forget that we are all so similar.  We had so much fun, looking at EVERYTHING and shopping!


We found all of these cool animal works of art from a super friendly artist names Joseph!  We met another artist, Karen from Wake Forest and fell in love with her stuff as well! We all ended up leaving with something special from both artists!!! Here is mom’s stash…

And Kelly’s…

And mine…


I love what everyone got and I love that we all have something from the same artists in our homes.  I also got earrings, a beautiful bowl and these magnets from the coolest lady on the planet!!!


Y’all know how I love a pun!  This lady is obsessed with puns and 90’s hip hop, I mean, did we just become best friends!? #yup Her store is called The Peppermill Shop and she is based in Wilmington.  Look at this hilarious cut out she had…we couldn’t get enough #idontcarrotall


Take Two:


The morning flew by and I shopped my heart out and loved spending the day with my mom and sis.  We had so much fun that we met dad at Kelly’s house to do some projects…this next segment is called…How many Beards does it take to change a mailbox!? #toomany #splitthewood #28extensioncordswerentenough

Kelly needed a new, nice mailbox and so the family pitched in…and by pitched in I mean I took selfies…


provided comic relief by asking everyone who walked by to help us and I also held up the mailbox for when Betty came by and we weren’t yet ready!

And viola…new mailbox!!!


Kelly and dad are so much alike, it’s hilarious to watch them tackle a project together!



What a fun day with my family!!! I spent the rest of the day DOING ABSOLUTELY NOTHING, besides ordering groceries!

IMG_20180310_171010_696.jpgThen I woke up this morning thinking I had gotten up so early…totally forgot about Spring Forward! I have to say though, I know we lost an hour and I probably won’t get much sleep tonight, but I LOVE that it will be lighter, later…I am solar powered!  My mom came over to keep the project tackling going!  Last weekend her and I bought chalk paint for an old flaky vanity that is in my room.  She painted it and her and my dad dropped it off yesterday.  Today, I organized it and I couldn’t be more in love!


I’m so in love.  The color is perfect and I’ve never felt so organized…I’m sure this will be the only day it looks this good, but I’ll take it.  Thank you so much mom!!!  Then we tackled more closet organization and continuing to get rid of clothes that I don’t wear anymore!  Then I spent the rest of the day cooking to prepare for the upcoming week!  This week on the menu, homemade sausage, sautéed carrots and shallots, enchilada bowls with cauliflower rice and homemade pico and potsticker burgers with asian cole slaw and spicy butternut squash fries…

I haven’t made the burgers and fries yet…but they are going to be so good, I just know it!

And on one last final note before I go, I have officially lost 51 pounds!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

20180311_192404.pngI feel so good and so motivated and so proud.  Thank you for all of your support.  Love you all to the moon and back.  Lesson learned…make the plans, spend the time with the people you love and eating healthy works. Until next time,



Two Meatballs: Reclaiming My Space!!!

Hello everyone!!!  Sara here!  How was your weekend!?


Mine was pretty low key…I feel like I’ve got a baby cold or my allergies are starting to take over, so I am as snuggled up on my couch as a person could be, writing this post!!!!!!


Literally every blanket is on me!!!  I’m taking baking soda, elderberry extract, vitamin C and all of my supplements so I know I will feel fresh as a daisy tomorrow! #positivethoughts

But otherwise, I’ve been all about de-hoarding my house lately and upping the organization factor at chez Beard with the help of my sweet parents and my boo. Somebody look at this …

Do you see that weird thing at the bottom…it’s the floor!!!  I haven’t seen the actual carpet in my closet for months…bc this is usually the place where I throw everything in when I’m “quick cleaning up”! Hahahahah If only I had taken a before pic!!!  The mountain of clothes that took over my bed was so overwhelming!!!  But my mom and I tackled it one bite at a time and my room has never looked better. My closet hasn’t been this clean since Ryan from Newman Builders built it!  I ordered some cute little cube boxes so I can make the built ins even more streamlined!  My goal is to keep cleaning out everything so that I can ultimately get rid of the big bulky dresser in my room!  I want to reclaim my space and make my room into a quiet, clean sanctuary of peace and comfiness!  I have a little ways to go to get there, but purging feels so good!

I’ve kept up to projects and shopping in my kitchen too!  Somebody look at my rack!


My cabinet next to my stove was OVERFLOWING, so I found this sweet little chicken wire spice rack on Amazon and fell in love.  And now my cabinet is roomy as hell and this little piece is giving my kitchen so much character…speaking of adorable…


I got these little cuties on Etsy from a store called Do Take it Personally!!!  I love a pun and I totally hate doing stupid dishes!  I want to be in my kitchen all the time and thank goodness, because y’all, that is exactly what to takes to stay on track.  But first, I had to reclaim some counter top space!!!

My kitchen is gorgeous (another Newman Builders project) but I am very limited on space and since I live in a small townhouse style condo, every fucking wall is load bearing!   I have had to accepted the foot print of my house…but this only makes it more and more important to reclaim my space.  My countertops were crammed with appliances, so I rearranged my beautiful shelves (Newman Builders) to accommodate my growing collection of kitchen tools  and reclaimed alllllllll of my cooking spaces!


Now I have all the room for chopping and mixing annnnnd flowers!


I found these at Trader Joe’s!  I am counting down the days until my first farm fresh flower delivery from Split Acre!!!


Now that I have this big roomy kitchen, it feels even better to cook in!  Lately I have been wanting to eat garbage, so instead, I made butternut squash fries…

This satisfied my cravings so well!  I ate them with Tessemae’s Whole 30 approved ketchup mixed with Paleo sriracha!  I bought the squash pre- zig zagged at Trader Joe’s, tossed them in avocado oil, sea salt, garlic and tumeric and roasted the hell out of them for 15 minutes ( I did 400, I would do 375 next time so that they aren’t QUITE as charred).

I also made the living best roasted dijon mustard pork!!!  I ate it on top of salads, chopped up for breakfast and in an asian carrot dish!!!  This week I also ate cilantro lime chicken zoodles and all of the sweet potato waffles!!!

Today, I slept in and started the day by eating the best breakfast!!!

Hummus and black beans are the two non Whole 30 things that I partake in, so this morning I smeared Roots mango sriracha hummus all over my waffles, made a 3 egg concoction and some tomato slices with a little sea salt sprinkled on top!  And of course my cold match latte!  I then started 1100 loads of laundry and cooked my life away this morning! I roasted some cabbage in the oven in one pan and cooked some bacon in another!  On the stove top, I sautéed some mushrooms, shallots, spinach and chicken sausage in fish sauce and coconut aminos, I tossed this on top of the roasted cabbage!  And in another pan I made paleo burrito bowl loaded!!!

So colorful, so yummy!!!!  I had enough peppers and onions leftover that I made another migas scramble, without the rotisserie chicken this time!


I tossed the freshly cooked bacon on top and now I have two breakfasts, two lunches and three dinners ready to go!  I think the key for me to keep it interesting is to not plan for more than 2-3 days at a time.

I have the second load of laundry in the dryer now, one more in the wash and one more to go and it’s only 3:40 on Sunday!!!  Jenny is coming over soon and I’m so excited to see my meatball!  I hope that y’all have had a great weekend and that you’ll have a great week!  See you again real soon! Xoxo,


Two Meatballs: Sweet and Bittersweet Anniversaries

Hello world!  Sara here!!!  February 9th marked a really important day for me…4 years without alcohol or cigarettes!!!


Somebunnie look how TEEEENY I was!!! If you don’t know me, or are new to the blog, I used to party my dick off.  And it wasn’t pretty orrrrr healthy for me….or anyone around me.  I literally never in my life thought I would be sober, but it is hands down the right thing for me and my proudest accomplishment of my sweet little life so far.  I celebrated by treating myself to a facial.  My client/friend Carrie told me all about her amazing esthetician, Kat from Rosehips Studio http://www.rosehipsbeauty.com and I could not wait to go!  I was supposed to go a few weeks before but the snow derailed us and I got to go on my actual anniversary! As I explained a few posts ago…my face is the Sahara (my brain is telling me to say the Sara Desert hahahahaha) and I needed to shed some old ass, dry flaky skin…and I live for that post facial glow!!! Somebody look how dewey!


I fell in love with Kat as soon as she opened the door…her energy is scrumptious.  She had such a lovely space and everything she used was fruit based and smelled delightful.  I couldn’t have enjoyed this experience and our conversations more and I CANNOT  wait to go back!

So that was my happy anniversary…can’t wait to celebrate year number 5!  February also brought with it the 3 year anniversary of my sweet Grandma Apple’s passing.  It is still hard for me to believe that she is gone.  She is my soulmate and I miss her so much that it hurts.  But my fond memories and the sound of her laugh in my mind make it easier.


Just look at her…can’t you just tell that you would have LOVED HER!? Trust me, she was the living best.  Every night I hope that she shows up in my dreams and every morning I have breakfast with her.


In my Facebook feed today was a post I had written about grieving her…it was RIGHT after her passing and I had myself crying like a baby.  But it feels so good to let it out and let the waves crash over you for a minute.


So how do I celebrate this anniversary? How do I honor my old roomie, my sugar, the love of my life…by giving her what she always wanted for me… continuing to go down the road on my journey to health and spend even more time with my family and the ones I love.   Janet Apple loved the saying , “It’s not the destination, it’s the journey” and I love to think of her each day as I cook.  And girl…I can’t STOP cooking! I have expanded my grocery budget so that I can keep things interesting and so I can cook for my loved ones!


I also bought myself some new mugs for me and Benny Boo Boo Bear!!!


My parents ( my mom especially) have really been helping me clean out and purge my home!  If I am going to remodel, I need to create some space!!!  So I asked if I could come over Saturday night and make dinner as a thank you!  What was on the menu you ask!?  First of all, thank you for asking…I love talking about food!  We made Filipino Steaks and guyyyyyyyys…it was INCREDIBLE!!!

The weather was so beautiful!!!  I marinaded the steak overnight, prepped the tomato sauce and all of the ingredients then showed up at my parents.  My dad had the grill going and the music bumpin…you know in a Bill Withers, Hall and Oats kind of bumpin! We sat outside and enjoyed it all, the breeze, the music, the food, each other!

Kelly even stopped by for awhile…what a dream!!!  Grandma would have loved it.  She would also love this…


I’m fucking doing it!!!  I am really feeling good and super motivated.  I even signed up for a produce and flower delivery from my favorite local farm, Split Acre Farm!!!


I love how devoted to sustainable farming Joe and Lisbeth are and I’m so excited to enjoy this gift to myself…me and Kelly are splitting it and I just can’t wait to get my first delivery of fresh produce and flowers mid April!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #farmerjoe If you are interested in partaking please visit http://www.splitacrefarm.com

Things have really changed for me.  I’ve traded in the beer bongs and jaeger bombs for pinterest meals and fresh produce…and I couldn’t be happier.  Thanks for all the love and support.  I love y’all right back! This one is for you Gigi.  #noyouhangup


See you again next week!



Two Meatballs: Cleaning Out My Closets!!!

Hello world!!!  Sara here! What a week since we last spoke!!!  I taught another round of Color Boot Camp at Sammie Cole with Carolyn, Libby, Morgan and Silvi!

This is a two day intensive, immersive head first dive in to the world of color…my favorite!  Coloring hair is my spirit animal!!!


As you can see! #ablondeabrunetteandaredheadfallinlove #himegandlila #imgoingtotextaboutthedinneryogaextractionsdate #ipromise

I just love watching the light bulbs go off!!!  I also got the be a model again…all my blonde dreams come true, thanks Carolyn!

Then it was Valentine’s Day!  I got to hang out with my sweet clients…


and my team that I love so much!!! And I love a day devoted to love!


#hellyes #hiIsabella

My boyfriend and I had to celebrate early this year.  But he came through on my new found love of acts of service…and words of affirmation…and quality time…and physical touch! #hemakesmybed #somethingineverdoformyself

Ugh I love him! #bennybooboobear #tbt

I also did a lot of cooking this week!  I am really understanding the importance of being prepared annnnd keeping myself excited with what is next.  My clients keep telling me I should start a cooking service for people to eat healthy…intriguing!

This week for breakfast I switched up my routine and had a “cereal” which consisted of granny smith apples, 1/2 banana, cashews, almonds, unsweetened shredded coconut, almond butter drizzle, cinnamon and almond coconut milk! So delish and a much needed change of pace.  Lord knows what will happen if I get bored haha. I also made a new batch of waffles and this time I omitted (aka forgot) the honey…and I love them so much more now!  I am a savory girl.  I’m thinking about doing green onions, chives, shallots and a little bit of garlic in my next batch!

For lunches and dinners I had some oldie but goodies and some new favorites!

My mom has been coming through once a week and giving me something that they have made and I’ve been having my family over a lot for meals!  I love the exchange annnnnnnd the time together!  This week she brought taco chicken which I ate with all the avocados!  I also had egg roll in a bowl, some concoction with hot dogs since Whole Foods was out of chicken sausage (this was a fail!!!!) and then I did paleo burrito bowl which I’ve had a few times now, but I did it with carrot rice instead of cauliflower and guyyyyyys…GAME CHANGER! Carrot rice is so good!  I tried Siete’s grain free tortilla’s this weekend too….delicious and nutritious.  It felt nice to eat an actual taco/burrito (what’s coming out of your speedo!?)  And the last little slice of heaven that I made this weekend was a Tuscan chicken spaghetti squash bake.  This was life.  It legit tastes like pizza!!!!

After acupuncture on Saturday, my mom, who I love so much, offered to help me tackle the black hole that is my front closet…


If you’ll remember from last week (really like two weeks ago now) I needed my craft box, so I destroyed my house #lifeofa4…we had our work cut out for us.  I am so grateful for my support system.  I can feel that they really want me to get healthy (and stay healthy this time)  and they are all, all in! I could cry forever thinking about how good I have it and the people who lift me up.  I love love!!!!!!!!!!  I’m so grateful for my family, friends and team!!! I also love that every time I really start eating healthy and wanting to move my body more, there is also a part of me that says, we’ve got to purge everything in your house!  And girl, I’m down! So after lots of fantasizing about how we would makeover our houses and looking up crafting class and drinking coffee and snuggling on the couch and cooking lunch and dinner (mom and I are cut from the same cloth, procrastinator/dreamers for life)  and started a new side project of framing and hanging my adorable cards


Aren’t they the cutest!!! Then…we finally tackled that damn closet! #exhaustedalready #jk #butreally


3 Goodwill bags and 4 bags of trash later and it’s gorgeous!  We also cleaned out my laundry area!


I can’t wait to keep this up…continue the purge!  I think I am finally learning that, like my health, cleaning out isn’t a one time thing.  You have to keep taking things out of your house (body) if you keep brining things in (which I’m like really good at #shebeshopping #alloftheboxesonmyfrontporch) And lately, I have had this huge desire to grow up my space downstairs.  I have a quirky, eccentric townhome.  It is full of dead doll chandeliers, a pink cuckoo clock, a mannequin head dressed like a unicorn, life size plaster pigs, my grandma’s old rotary phone, hot pink bathrooms and all of the weird art you sweet heart could ever desire!

And don’t get me wrong…I love my stuff and I will always be weird! Buuuuuuut, I’m tired of looking at the same space everyday.  I am feeling the need for new #grownandsexy I’ve been Pinteresting up a storm, so you know it’s serious!  I really want to paint my living room pink and do a lot of neutrals and grays and GOLLLLLD! And I need more prints in my life and wallpaper!  Here is a look book!

Now that I have the aesthetic, I need to work on the budget!  But I can feel that nervous excitement in my belly for change!  Time to keep purging to make room for all the gorgeous changes to come.  I’ll keep you posted!  Until next week…



Look at alllllllllll that glitter!!!  #tbt

Two Meatballs: If You Give A Mo(use) A Cookie

Hello everyone!!!  Sara here!  Y’all I have been cooking up a storm and leaving a mess in my wake!  But I have been making the living best stuff!  Last week ended on a high note with an enchilada bake…the leftovers were even better!


Then I made a chicken alfredo “pasta” or squashta as I like to call it!


This right here…this right HERE…was so flippin good!  It was savory, and casserole like and so comfy in this freezing cold weather!  I ate it for dinner, for breakfast, for lunch and I am for sure going to make it for Thanksgiving!

Then B came over and we ate the squashta for dinner and then we made Korean beef together….IT WAS SO GOOD and I can’t explain enough how easy it was to make! I just love cooking with my boo.  And you guys, Acts of Service is my 4th out of 5 love languages, but after I left for work the next morning, B unloaded the dishwasher, reloaded the dishwasher, took out my recycling and MADE MY BED!!!! Oh my gosh, I need to retake the test, bc I have never been more turned on or more in love! HA!

This recipe is on Pinterest but the first two I found on Instagram!  I follow Whole 30 recipes and they are forever putting up great looking and tasting food.  I have the Whole 30 cookbook, but it can get a little boring and I know it is blasphemous to say this…but so bland! #rightchelsea!? It is so fun cooking and I feel like everyone at work is in to healthy eating right now so it has been fun to try each others food!

This week also marked my sister Kelly’s actual birthday!  The one and only Kelly Courtney Beard, turned 40 this week and I bombarded social media with all the cutest pic of my sweet sis!

I feel like bursting in to tears every time I think of how much I love my sister!!!  And somebody look at how AHHHHH-DORABLE we all were!  And I just can’t get enough of these two!

Our Aunt Deb and Uncle Steve were in town and staying with our parents so we all went out to dinner for Kelly’s birthday at Firebirds and had a ball!

We did a selfie circle and it was hilarious!  I ordered the spinach salad without the stuff I couldn’t have and got the most reasonable dressing (green goddess) since I forgot mine and topped it off with steak!


Deee-licious! We laughed and ate and talked and snuggled and celebrated Kelly!

I ate the hell of out my leftovers for breakfast the next morning!  I ate all my steak so I added chicken sausage and my Whole 30 approved dressing!


After work Jenny came over and we had an afternoon tea!  Except I made coffee and sweet potato waffles with ghee instead of tea and crumpets!

20180202_153929.jpgIt was so good and even though we didn’t get to hang out for very long, I cherish any moment I get with my favorite meatball!

IMG_20180202_154937_910-1.jpgUgh I love her!  It’s a good thing I fueled up and that Jenny had to go bc I had a big project ahead of me!  About a week before I reached out to as many people as I could think of to write a birthday letter for Kelly.  Kelly loves a letter, so what better gift than compiling a million personal letters for her 40th!  Now the title is going to start making more sense.  So, I had received all the letters, gathered the pictures, ordered the book they would go in, got the envelopes to place the letters in, got beautiful Sharpies to write with…I sound so organized and prepared right?!  Let me tell you what happens when I do anything.  I have 1,000’s of thoughts that swirl through my head at rapid speeds.  So when I start doing something I think…hmmm, I should get my craft box out, don’t want to miss out on an opportunity to make this gorgeous.  Then I think, where is my craft box, then I think oh yeah, the front closet, then I open the front closet and there is an insane amount of shit between me and my destiny.  Then I think, fuck this shit, I need my craft box and I start ripping everything out of the closet (which is my catchall) until finally I can see the light…I also find an unopened Amazon box, a christmas present I never gave to Chase, my missing mittens and literally everything I have ever been missing!

20180202_213703.jpgOne idea leads to another which leads to another which results in this hot mess!  I try to tell myself that it is just my creative brain.  I spent way too long on this, so I reigned myself back in and got started!!!  I love starting an arts and crafts project!  I love letting all of my ideas come to fruition. But more than anything, I love my sister so much and reading all of these letters from people who also ADORE her had me straight up bawling my eyes out (like sorry about all the tears on the pages of this book I made!)  Before I knew it I had made another huge mess…

20180202_213647.jpgAnnnd maybe the best thing I’ve ever made! I have always LOVED writing books for my family!  Imagine that!

The plan was to give the book to Kelly on Superbowl Sunday, but as you read last week, Chase got the flu…then Kelly!  So our party was cancelled.  But we finally rescheduled when everyone was feeling better.  It was really a blessing that my deadline got extended (not that my family for the flu!) because so many more letters came in.  So, to everyone who shared their beautiful thoughts, memories and well wishes with my sister, thank you so much!!!  It was incredible to see her, someone I’ve known and looked up to my whole life, through other people’s eyes.  I think it will make us even closer and I didn’t know that was possible!  I made a big pan of chicken chow mien and showed up at Kelly’s.  I felt like I was going to barf…I was so ready for my sister to bathe in all this love.  And let me tell you something…we all had all the feels.

Me and mom couldn’t stop crying!


Dad was comfort eating!


40 people wrote letters!!!  My sister is so loved by so many.  This book was worth ripping my house apart and mildly harassing her friends, family and co-workers.  We had so much fun reading and laughing and crying, eating the best dinner if I do say so myself…


Then we watched Roseanne and Seinfeld bloopers and that one Drew Carey show with all the farting!  The kids were bored out of their minds, but the OG Beards had a ball.  Lesson learned…leave nothing unsaid.  All the wonderful things you think about a person, tell them.  It literally means the world.  Also, always say yes to family time.  And finally, who cares about a clean house when you can make people feel good!?!  I love you all!!!  Until next time. Xoxo