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Two Meatballs: Peace, Love and Paleo!!! (aka The 15th Weigh in)

Welcome to the North Carolina Museum of Art!  What a gorgeous back drop for our 15th weigh in shoot! Let’s make a new American Gothic!

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And take a stroll around this beautiful place!

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We’re coming for you!

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Time to stop and toss the flowers!

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Let’s get even closer to nature!

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And each other!

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Let’s go explore!

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Shew, it’s hot out here…let’s find some shade!

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Time to stop and smell the flowers!

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Perfect place for another stroll #helloactivitypoints

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There is more art to see!

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We are pooped!

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No more fooling around, weigh in time!

Jenny, You’re up bunny!

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first off….Thank you Tiffanie!  I had so much fun!!  So I’m just going to say it.  I love some of these pictures and some of them I HATE!!  and guess what…..i know why,  because I’m up 13lbs from my lowest weight and i can feel it and see it.   But i have also never been happier in many ways.  I have so much to be grateful for! Great family, friends, husband, daughter, tina myles, amazing job….with all this good stuff around me, i guess i have slacked on taking care of business and just lived in the moment a little to much!  This journey is still going, And I can’t wait to see what June brings.  I want to look at each picture and know i worked really hard. This is definitely a great photoshoot and so happy to be apart of this amazing thing we got going on!!  as always love you sara..would have never done this without you!

Sara, you’re up kitten!

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Ok, I can see now that you can’t read my board! Haha Starting weight was 292, Current Weight  280, I gained 10 pounds lost 12 pounds netted 2! I’m glad to have lost weight, but I hate that I have to keep relearning lessons about not losing the same flipping ten pounds.  No matter, there is FINALLY a minus on my chalkboard and I am so thankful for that.  Whatever it takes to keep plodding on this journey is what I am married to right now.  I feel way more  connected with Jenny, the gym and the kitchen and it feels soooooo good thank goodness!  What a beautiful setting we had today.  Looking through these pictures, I felt beautiful I also felt big.  I don’t like that feeling.  I know what it feels like to be smaller and I want that feeling again and I’m going to have it.  June…you are mine.  Thanks to everyone who keeps encouraging us and reminding us that this is real life.  And to Jenny, what would I do without you.  This is our month.  We are back…once again haha!  Love you all!

We couldn’t end this day without a good old fashioned flower fight!

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Go to our instagram page if you want to see Jenny brutally beat me with flowers! Thank you Tiffanie for shooting us today! You made this so much fun and you had such great ideas!  Thank you for being an inspiration to us on this journey! XOXO

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We had a blast! Also thank you to Natalie, Kelsey and Silvi for donating lots of jewelry and clothing to the hippie cause! We felt adorable!  Also, if you see a necklace or bracelet that you love, our buddies Kelsey and Chelsea make them and you can order their adorable creations at their ETSY shop thebeadwagon Check them out!

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Love y’all and thank you!

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And as always; your outtakes!!!! #literallyeverysceneisapartofawedding #engagementphotos #walkingdowntheaisle #tossingthebouquet #notseeingeachotherbeforethewedding #powerlesbians #gettingnakedatamuseum #movingintherightdirection #yallitwashot #jennysintensestare #sarasconstantbitchface #milkmaidens #securityguards #yikes #hichrismcclay #hichrismcclayswife #sogratefulforallthesupport #thatteddydidnothingforme #allergiesfordays #twomeatballsinafield #imgoingtobepissedifthisispoisonivy #touchthebutt #isntnorthcarolinabeautiful

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Annnnnd we’re done!

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We love y’all!

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Two Meatballs: What Would Carrie Bradshaw Do?!

You can feel it from a mile away but it’s ironically a TOTAL surprise.  The texts stop coming in as frequently…you’re not planning future dates anymore. You actually sweetly think that YOU are going to break up with HIM because you find yourself wanting more.  Then Saturday night rolls around and you get the 2014 equivalent of the Carrie Bradshaw Sex and the City post it note break up!

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A fucking break up text!!! Annnnnd you are mostly surprised by how much it stings after only three months

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but also relieved that its over because the distance and rejection over the last week  felt reallllllly shitty.  Being sober I have had oh so many revelations.  One of the biggest ones was how unknowingly unsupportive I was of my girlfriends during break ups!  I always had the mentality of why would you want to be with someone that doesn’t want to be with you.  I still feel like that, but I didn’t realize that all you want is for someone to make you feel better!  And I don’t know about you, but bashing him doesn’t make me feel better. I don’t need to turn this into anger to get pumped up to move on.  So to all my girlfriends and family members…my bad!!!! I really honestly just didn’t know.  I thought my logic and pointing out all the other persons short comings would make you feel better but it really just makes you feel worse. It feels strange at 31 to say that this is my first time being dumped!  #babysfirstheartbreak For the last decade I did anything I could to keep men at an arms length…only engaging in physical relationships. I was a drunk mess and I didn’t want to be judged or make myself vulnerable. So, when I decided to stop drinking I also decided to give a relationship a go…and I found out sooooo much.  I’m the living worst communicator!  Who knew the girl with the blog would suck so terribly at stating my own needs!  I realized that I love being in a relationship…after the first month of longing to be single bc its what I had known forever and what was comfortable.  I share my space well and I love really getting to know someone.  I love going on fun dates and doing nice things for someone I care about.  It was totally worth putting myself out there to learn how much I like being a part of something . So, I’m walking away with the knowledge that  I am totally capable of being emotionally intimate in a real grown up relationship, I could for sure work on communicating better, I can handle being broken up with with my self esteem in tact, especially when I know it’s the best thing and ultimately I have no regrets. #grown?!

 

Now, having said all of that…I can’t deny that this was really sad!!!! We never even talked about it…it just eneded…through technology!  But honestly I can’t think of a thing that would have made it better or less awkward.  Another thing that I have learned from being sober is that I am capable of feeling more emotions that just happiness and anger.  I am a very logical person when it comes to these situations.  I wanted more, he wanted less or more with someone else.  That can’t work.  My brain knows alllll of that but with no substance abuse coping mechanism

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…I spent some time on the phone with my sister and Katie bawling…saw my parents and cried some more #whoamI?!

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By the way I have the greatest people in my life ON EARTH!  I’m so thankful everyday.  The few people who knew really wanted to comfort me and I couldn’t thank them more! #theyknowmesowell

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And some time on my couch with my  tissues and favorite meatball were all necessary.  It was time to lick my wounds.  I love my little support system. But what’s next…

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“I couldn’t help but think…(did you see what I did there Nichole LuMaye!?)…What would Carrie Bradshaw do!? Retail Therapy!?

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Jenny came to my happy place last week…the beach!  So this week she took me to hers…the mall!!!

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You guys, retail therapy, especially with your best friend is a thing and it feels amazing.  First stop…MAC for a new fall lip!

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Then we went to H&M and Forever 21 and we both found so many fall looks!

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Then we went to Target for more clothes…and laughs #thankyuoforbeingafriendtraveleddowntheroadandbackagain #goldengirlssweatshirt #tootinycroptops #jennyisazombie

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Being with this girl makes me feel so much better!!!  We love trying on the ugliest stuff and who needs a dressing room am I right ladies!?!  But we did find some total gems.  But then what…comfort eat!?

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So, we had dinner at my favorite place…Coquette!  It was the most romantic dinner two little meatballs could ask for.  It was also one of our two monthly cheat nights….it was heaven!  Then we got a french silk blizzard from Dairy Queen #shame but it was the coldest little hug of yumminess!  But most of all  to feel better, I think Carrie would write about it…

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Writing down how you feel is such a cathartic thing…a total release.  Getting all of this out and then reading it back to yourself helps you process everything that happened and gives you such amazing perspective and peace.  I know that this has very little to do with paleo or workouts with a trainer but this is a little bump in my journey that I’m not going to let spiral out.  I have today to cry and then I’m moving on.  It was really hard to actually feel my feelings instead of turning to something else to make them go away.  It is ok to feel sad…but don’t wallow and know when to get out.

So in closing…a break up is sad but its also what is meant to be!  I’m choosing to walk away with fond memories and a better knowledge of what I want in the future.  Love you guys so much and thanks for the inspiration…turns out I’m a Carrie.

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Two Meatballs: An Ode to the Irreplaceable Krilfistilfina!

I talk a lot about my friends and family…they are my life!  But my cousin Kristina was mos def my first built in friend.  I had the greatest childhood and Kristina is a huge contributing factor to that happiness !!! Look how sweet we were!?!? And Uncle Marty…those shorts…hellllo!

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We are only 2 1/2 years apart and we spent soooo much time together that she was always another sister to me…

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Another sister that would actually play with me! (yeah I’m talking to you Kelly! xo)

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This is us on Christmas morning at our Grandma Apple’s…we spent a ton of time together with our grandparents splashing in puddles during storms, spending countless hours at the library and in the cemeteries, sitting outside of haunted houses, playing in the camper, playing Old Maid and Chutes and Ladders on repeat, going to the Piggly Wiggly and playing at the park across the street.  They even took us to Disney World where we spent more time in the motel pool than in Disney and we created our own language to fit in with the international fans of the park! Look at those fanny packs! #toocoolforschool #shegotgumstuckinhersantradedwithme #peopledontforget #sneakysnake  #sushihead

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We also went to Sea World…we didn’t know back then…no judgement!

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We put on little plays for our family…

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But mostly we just played…for hours on end…

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We even Trick or Treated together…

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And around this age there was  just tons of driving around in her car, smoking Newport Mediums…woof and singing Fiona Apple, No Doubt and the Dixie Chicks…and being completely inseparable! We went to 100,000 movies, the zoo, watched Miss America while eating chocolate chip mug cookies (which Kristina invented), forced ourselves to watch every scary movie ever made, had one bazillion sleepovers, beach vacations, riding on the nose of Uncle Al’s boat singing Walking on Sunshine, getting whelps from sitting in Jellyfish poison,  rv-ing in the mountains, seeing outdoor plays, played Family Feud non stop on our ancient computer, she would call me sushi head and I would cry(this was on the way to Disney so I was much younger but it still stings! haha), playing on our bicycle built for two and our super cool crutches, we played every game and put together every puzzle known to man and sooo much more! Like any family relationship/friendship there were def rocky times and lots of games where we hit each other violently but the good times always outweighed the bad and I always knew she had my back and I knew I always had hers.

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We just remained really close and eventually our circles of friends all merged into one.  Kelly and Katie, Kristina and myself were together most weekends….we celebrated recitals, birthdays,  graduations, weddings, babies and just generally enjoyed spending time together.

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Then the most amazing thing happened…we both became hairstylists and ended up both working at Samuel Cole Salon…for the past nine years!  Who is this lucky to get to work with their best friend cousin sister Kri Kri K-Dog X-Tina five days a week…every week!?!?  Working together has afforded us so many opportunities that we got to share together.  We have trapesed all over NYC together taking the best classes at the House of Bumble, going to Broadway shows, MOMA, eating at some of the best restaurants, performed Thai Chi in Times Square, created a living art instillation,  almost got murdered at the Hotel Chelsea #rapeportal #theshiningmeetscsi,  and stalking…I mean bumping into Rihanna at the W #thereisnophotobcwereidiots!

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We’ve been through promotions and title changes, countless Bobbies, Grand Re-openings, salon moves and newer Grand Openings, awards, she was even my model for an editorial submission…but most importantly we just got to spend time together!  When Kris first came to work at Samuel Cole, I was so excited I found myself hugging her everyday…no shocker for me right Melinda,  but for those who don’t know my cuz that well…hugging is not her jam.  She had to impose a once a week hug mandate on me…bahahahahahaha! I tried but failed!

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Kristina has the most contagious laugh…she literally cries she laughs so hard, she has unbridled joy for cookies, she so fucking smart and I believe she could perform surgery just through sheer will and determination, she is the best mom and an awesome sounding board with great advice.  Those are the things I’ll miss the most…because my sweet friend  after having her third child has decided to stay home with her  kids.  I love hate this decision soooo much.  But I couldn’t be happier for her and I will just have to trek it out to Wake Forest a little more often…to see her…and her fun kids…and her husband Tim whom I adore #winwinwin!!!  So, to Kristina…I have cried at least three times writing this.  I feel so lucky that we are sooo close and have all this amazing history together. I love you to the moon and back and then back to the moon again.  So many of my fondest memories involve you and I wouldn’t want it any other way.  You are the reason I went to hair school and I just couldn’t thank you enough.  I’m so glad that we get to be a part of each others lives forever.  Love you cuzzy wuzzy.

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Ps if you are wondering about the title…Our Grandma Apple made up her own pig latin and that is how you say Kristina…Krilfistilfina…Mine is Sarlfara.   Get it..nope we don’t either but we can all speak it fluently somehow! I LOVE YOU KRIS! #bffffffffffffffs #bestcousins #luckytimesinfinity