Coquette

Two Meatballs: This Barre is Purrrrrrrre and Our Third Meatball!

You guys (this is Sara)…I have found my exercise spirit animal, and it is Pure Barre North Raleigh.

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I have been having the hardest time getting myself motivated to work out again! My stylist and buddy Natalie was doing my hair the other day and telling me the key to life is getting up at 5am and going to workout at a class and getting it done…having the rest of the day ahead of you.  At the time it sounded like crazy talk! This is Sara from the future…Natalie!!! You were so right! #lifechanger

The girls at Samuel Cole Salon have been going to classes and Pure Barre specifially forever and I finally got begrudgingly persuaded into going.  I don’t know if I’ve mentioned this but classes were my worst nightmare.  I found the thought of them soooo incredibly intimidating!  I talked myself into a tizzy over this last year of fitness and wellness that classes weren’t for me.  They were for experienced, fit girls.

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I convinced myself the instructors would yell at you and I would fall or cry or break my leg and knock myself out and lose all my front teeth or fly off an exercise ball and take out a row of old ladies!?!  What a silly girl I am.  So when Sandra had to unexpectedly leave town just as I was getting my healthy groove back AND Jenny was out of town for the Bee Wedding I had several realizations.  #1 I am completely dependent on Sandra!  It is such an amazing and challenging workout and I was in such a bad place for so long that I convinced myself that the once a week with her was enough.  So when I got my shit back together I decided to start seeing Sandra twice a week #accountabilityiskey We made it through one week before she had a family emergency. #loveyouandyourfamilysandy I was feeling so connected again, I had to find a way to keep going! #2 I need a buddy, I am codependent as hell! #3 I hate wearing shoes…especially sneakers. #4 The world has a wonderful way of presenting you exactly what you need, exactly when you need it.

So reality came crashing down that I would be solo in the exercise game last week and I thought, Sara you better steel yourself up for this!  Lauren, my next door neighbor at work and the love of my life,

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said you should try Pure Barre.  I’ll help you sign up!  She walked me to the computer, we found a time together and it was a 6am class last Wednesday.  Everything felt very fate.  I worried about waking up, being on time, would I die…all the normal stuff!  But we got there and Grogan was there too!!!  I was feeling the love and support and it helped me feel comfortable and excited!  Claire was our teacher and it was go go go from word go!

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After lots of air humping, pulsing, bending and lets of tiny, controlled movements and music blasting, an hour flew by!   Claire was so nice and encouraging and helped me understand how to do things!

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An hour flew by and I survived!  Grogan really pushed me to sign up for an unlimited month!  So I did and she helped me download the app and I started signing up for so many classes.  They have a 40 classes in 60 days and I want to see if I can do it!  So, Grogan and I went back on Friday…at 6am!  Today we had Kim!  She was so challenging and supportive!

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Haaaa!!!  Look at that couch love!  Her class was an ass kicker for sure!  Then I did something I NEVER thought I would do…I went by myself on Sunday and met the sweetest, most lovely little Paige!

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She gave me tips on how to do some things that I can’t physically do yet differently so I still get a good workout…I love modifications!  I set myself up and everything and survived solo workouts!

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Then I made it to number 4…reunited with Grogan on Monday!

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So early, so ugly! Today was with Christina!  She had a great energy and again was super encouraging!

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You guyyyys!!!!  I’m in love with this place and this lifestyle! Getting up early and going to bed early feels great.  I have no idea what I’m doing, but I’m doing something, it’s booked, it’s in my calendar, and I don’t have to wear shoes!!!!!!!!!!  I already feel better in my adorable new bathing suits from MonifC! I love this one piece and fringe fatkini!

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I was oh so wrong about classes.  The instructors have been amazing, this class style is so challenging and different.  They are small classes and everyone is friendly.  It’s so hard you don’t have the energy to see what everyone else is doing.  And the warm up is the same.  So the first day I felt like I couldn’t do anything and now I already feel like I am more capable…how motivating is that!?  To the girls at work…I love you guys so much I could cry.  Thank you for the support and encouragement and the glowing positivity!  I really needed you and y’all were at the right place in the right time in my life!Love times a milly.  Second, thank you Pure Barre North Raleigh…this has been life changing and such a happy edition to my life!!!  Thank you to every single instructor and I can’t wait to meet everyone and for us to all fall in love.  My goals is to hit 40 classes and to be able to eventual plank on my toes!  Love isn’t a strong enough word!  Sign up today, conquer your fears…its feels incredible! Here is some closing PB inspiration!

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In other news I went on a thousand dates while my meatball was gone! My bff’er K Tizzle came to town and we Zested it up!

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#alltheangles

Then I reconnected with my old partner in crime Lauren!  We hadn’t seen each other in ages and I was giddy and nervous for our date…hahah!!!  Lauren is the living embodiment of adorable

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and down for anything!  WE met at Coquette and I had the duck…it was gross.

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We laughed and caught up on everything…i love reminiscing!

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I literally didn’t want the night to end…Love you Lauren, can’t wait to do it again!

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On the work front… my adorable sister and her kids came in to the salon!

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We got the hot new summer products in from Oribe…could not be more obsessed!

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This showed up in my Facebook time hop thing!

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This was from Oribe’s La Fama in Miami 2 years ago…this was very motivating!  Love these people!

Then a super inspiring stylist, Katie Manselle started at the salon!  This woman is incredibly talented and such a gem!  I love our growing family!

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And finally…my meatball came home and we have been bonding our asses off!  We are finally both in the same place in so many ways in the longest time!

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Then, the cherry on the paleo PIE (get it Reuben?! winky face)…Reuben Carranza, President at Luxury Brand Partners and  Group President of R+Co and v76 came back to the salon on Monday to give us all an inspiring class on branding!  Reuben is the self proclaimed third meatball and we wouldn’t have it any other way.  You may remember him from such posts last year as Two Meatballs: Is There a Cloud 10?!?!?  We fell  in love with this mogul from moment one…I mean look at us!?

 

 

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I came in early to help set up for class

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and when we saw each other it felt like a slow mo run in the airport!  Reuben has a glow to him, a calm energy and a power!  He is enigmatic and so engaging.

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He looked great and said that he had started his own journey to health and lost 25 pounds since we last saw one another. Wahoooooo!  This powerful, pop culture loving and busy man has been so supportive of this meatball adventure and we are so grateful and humbled! #lbpfamily He reached out to us today!

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Haaaaa!!!  But class and I’m guessing that you are sensing a theme with this post…was so inspiring and thought provoking and relevant and buzzy with good vibes and hilarious imagery!

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Look at this man go!

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I learned so much about how to remove myself from negativity and exploring what my reputation is!  Reuben, I literally can’t wait to see you again in Miami.  You are a treasure and we are so lucky to know you.

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I feel like the universe has come together to put all the right people and support in place to help Jenny and I find the way again.  And you guys, we are so thankful for each and every one of you who help us along the way.  We will pay it forward.  We love you all.  I’ll be at the beach next week and then we will see y’all at weigh in!  XOXO,  I miss you guys already!

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#whycantidoadeadface!?

Two Meatballs: Cramming in Time with Your Meatball Before She Leaves for Vacay!

Jenny is leaving Wednesday to go to Sam and Taylor’s wedding in San Diego with her sweet little family!  Sam and Taylor make up 1/3 of Team Dunkel (Brandon and Jenny, myself and Joseph round out the team) and are two of my favorite peeps on earth!  I will be there in spirit!  So what is a meatball to do when her better half is traveling halfway across the world for a week!?  I go on vacation all the time and it’s different when I go out of town bc I’m off doing fun things! haha but now Jenny will be living it up and I will be missing her oh so much! Time to spend all the time we can together before the Smiths take California!  Wednesday night we cooked together as you’ll remember!

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Then Thursday night we raided h&m together for weigh in outfits!  We had so much fun we forgot to take pictures!

Then we started off the weekend right by running into each other at Whole Foods!

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And we obvi rode together to the shoot!

 

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Then right after the weigh in shoot we treated ourselves to our monthly free meal!  We had our favorite…brunch, at our favorite…Coquette!

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These were my Facebook memories this morning.  Two years ago to the day in nyc…man we have changed.

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Any who, back to the present…We were hippie’d out so we must have looked like the two most hungover, socialite wanna-bees that Raleigh ever saw!  #hilarious We didn’t want to completely blow all of the hard work we put in last month so we ordered somewhat sensibly!  We both chugged a gallon of water after sweating our asses off during the shoot!

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I had the steak sandwich and Jenny had the eggs Benedict.

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We sent the bread away!  We chatted it up and got super motivated to take over the world.  Ugh I love being together.

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Then we gave ourselves our once monthly cupcake and y’all it was heaven.  Look how beautiful!

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She tried the honey lavender and I had my strawberry lemonade!

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#wortheverybite

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Isn’t North Carolina the prettiest!?  I love this time of year!

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Then we switched our workout with Sandra to Monday since Jenny will be gone Thursday!  And it was a motherfucking woozy doozy. #heyblackoutitssaraillberightthere

We did it all…treadmills. intervals. trx. planks. squat jumps. arms. legs. core. pushups. superman. lunges. hip dips. death.

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Oh, sorry…I had to have an out of body experience to make it through this amazingly challenging workout! #sandyispumpedonmondays Back to reality!

 

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We survived and we did it together!  We can be soooooo good for each other!

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And who doesn’t love this face!

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Book with her today! http://www.innovativefitnesstraining.com Bye for now Jenny!!!  Enjoy your much needed vacay!  I miss you already!!!! #teammeatball #meatballnation #meatballin’ #amazeballs

 

Two Meatballs: A Sea of Thank You’s!!!

With Thanksgiving coming up these Meatballs have so much to be thankful for. First off let me say thank you so much for the birthday wishes, flowers, cards, paleo desserts, mixed cd’s #thankskelly, gifts and facebook love!!!  It really was the living best day of life! Being thankful has really become a theme for us over the past couple of weeks and I love it.  Life is so much easier and perspective is so different if you live in a constant attempted state of grateful.  With this theme in mind we wanted to continue thanking our weigh in photo shooters!  So tonight was Cara Dempsey night at our most favorite place on earth Coquette. Cara said fries were her weakness so what better place to go! Right away we ran into some of my favorite clients… the Wicklines!!!  Shout out to Jen, Ryan and the fam!!!

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We had the best conversations and sooo many laughs!!! We talked families, fierce conversations, exercise, holidays, what to do for the next shoot and even budgets.  It has been so nice getting to know Cara better!!!  We ordered three  entrees and shared them…our favorite!!!  Jenny got Beef Bourguignon…#imablogger

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Dempsey got the Scallops…

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And shocker I got the Steak Frites…

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WE all avoided the yummy bread at all cost!!!

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#sooohard

Everything was amazing and we mapped out a plan for the weigh in shoot!!!  So exciting.  You guys, it was so f-ing cold outside that we decided to go get a Starbucks treat!!!  But the walk there was brutal! Why is it winter already?! #babycold

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This will warm us upppp!!!

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Cara thanks so much for helping us out!!!  We can’t wait to work with you again! Xoxo

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Our next segment is a little get to know you sesh with our dear buddy Sandra!!!  She has been so incredibly instrumental in our journey to fitness and wellness.  She has taught us how to take care of ourselves physically and believed we were capable of more than we ever thought possible.  It feels so nice to feel strong!  Talk about empowering!  So we want for you to get to know our amazing trainer a little bit better!!!  I mean look at her…why are you not already seeing this woman!

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1. How and when did you find fitness?

I was a dedicated athlete in high school and active during college, but I struggled to find a place for fitness after college when I entered the workforce. Plagued by unhealthy eating and lifestyle habits, my weight spiraled out of control. I hit my breaking point when the scale reached 160 lbs and my 5’2” frame was wearing a size 14. Fortunately, I found my way back to a healthy weight through healthy eating and exercise. I exercise because I love what it does to my body both physically and mentally. Proper nutrition affects the way you feel throughout the day and gives you the energy you need to get through that workout. I can truly say that I FEEL better today than when I was in my early 20’s.

2. What was your biggest weight struggle in the past?

My weight spiraled out of control when I was in my late 20s due to unhealthy eating and lifestyle habits. For years, I always found it a struggle to find a “diet” that would work for me and become a lifestyle. Today, I follow a very clean diet eating lots of proteins, vegetables, fruit and nuts. I stay away from processed foods, grains, and I try my hardest to avoid gluten. This past year, I was diagnosed with Hashimoto’s disease, and I’ve been struggling with the fact that I’ve actually gained weight despite the clean eating. It is certainly a mental struggle but I’m going to keep pushing hard and continue eating clean because I truly feel better eating this way.
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3. How do you set yourself up for success?

Three things: 1) Surround yourself with positive influences and those that reflect who you want to be and how you want to feel. 2) Plan Ahead. Portion out your proteins and healthy snacks and prep your veggies, salads, and fruit ahead of time so you don’t get tempted when you are hungry. 3) Make your workouts an appointment on your calendar. If you don’t make it a priority, it will get pushed further into the day and sometimes never get done.

4) How have your recent health issues affected your journey?

We are all on our own journey to good health. I eat clean and exercise so that I can feel strong, have energy and feel well. Unfortunately, in the past year, I became excessively tired, irritable, moody, anxious and even depressed on occasion. To make matters worse, I was gaining weight despite eating a clean diet and training consistently. It was determined that my thyroid gland was underactive (Hashimotos disease) and that I have high levels of metals, particularly mercury and lead, in my system. These metals are blocking my thyroid gland from making hormones and getting my metabolism going.

To address this issue, I now follow a strict Paleo-type diet. It has actually made me more disciplined because I hit a breaking point where I was just so tired of feeling bad. To be honest, I actually enjoy eating this healthy and cannot see me ever going back to how I used to eat before. While my weight is still an issue, I have to keep reminding myself that I am human too. Just because I am a trainer, sometimes there are outside factors interfere with your fitness journey. You can’t let them get in the way of your overall goal. I know I will overcome this. I am too strong to give up now.

http://www.innovativefitnesstraining.com is her website and (919) 601-3140 is the best way to contact her.  If you are struggling to find the motivation to work out or you simply just don’t know how, call Sandra.  She will literally change/save your life and do it all with a smile!  We love you more than you’ll ever know Sandy!  Now, onto the ass kicker and the most exciting news the meatballs have had to date!  You guys…thanks to our blogging buddy Melinda…WE ARE GOING TO BE ON WRAL FOR A SEGMENT WITH BILL LESLIE! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH…I mean could this week get any better!?  He is coming to the salon to interview us on Monday morning but today they sent a super awesome camera man, Tom Normanly to shoot us working out with Sandra!  And boy did she give it to us today!

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Tom was so fun and you could see him shimmying to the music that was blasting over the speakers.  He told us after he got his shots that he was on his own journey and had just lost 100 pounds!!!  Incredible Tom!!!!  We are always amazed at how universal this struggle is and it’s so inspiring to meet other people in the same journey!  Xoxo Tom!  We don’t know when the segment is going to air but as soon as we do we will post it!!! Now like I said Sandra really upped the anty today!  So here is a montage sans words bc I think I blacked out for most of this!

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I’m sweating just looking over it again…and we did all of this for two rounds!!!!  Then we died!  Jk…then we jackassed around!

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Best day ever…we’ll keep you posted on our first tv appearance!!!  Love y’all and thank y’all so much!

 

 

 

Two Meatballs: Dinner with a Side of Bon Voyage!

Saturday night was sooo much fun for these meatballs!  First we took our sweet friend Cara out for a long overdue thank you dinner.  She shot our sixth and most succesful (based on views) weigh in to date!

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We love you Cara.

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And what better way to show that love than with Foie Gras!?  Welcome to date night at Coquette!

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The girls had yummy cocktails and wine while I sipped on my water!!!  Cara had foie gras, Jenny had the duck and you guys aren’t even going to believe it but I had my favorite…steak frites. It was packed so we ate at the bar and had sooo much fun catching up.  We used to hang out every single weekend and it had been ages since the three of us went to dinner. #nostalgia Blast from the past became the theme for the night! Love you Cara and thanks again!!!

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Before we left we ran into one of my favorite clients, Catherine and her family and friends!  Then we went into the bathroom and ran into one of my sisters high school friends/huge meatball supporter, Gwen!

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It was so great to catch up!!!  So great in fact that we invited Gwen and her husband Billy (Ben and Gwilly) to come meet us at our next stop where my sister was waiting…Saints and Scholars for our sweet friend Kristi Kessler’s going away party! And they came! #thanksforallthesupportwiththeblogyall

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Kristi has worked with Jenny and myself at the salon for years and is now moving to Florida!  We have spent soooo many fun nights with this girl!!!  So many drunken parties at Saints, kitchen kareokee at my house #ificouldturnbacktime, late nights at Cookout, baby showers, birthday parties, weddings and so much more! Here is a little stroll down nights with Kristi past!

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There is nothing more fun than seeing everyone outside of work.  And our favorite former co-workers Jenna and Lauren came with Candace and it was soooo great to see them!!!  Those girls have the living best laughs! #quarterlyhangouts

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My sister has become an honorary salon member and she came with friends in tow!  So nice that everyone gets along!

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And then of course all of Kristi’s friends from the salon came out! #soloved

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These meatballs love a celebration!

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It’s so nice for everyone to get together…even though it is sad to see our sweet friend go!!!  Kristi we love you so much and we will miss you!!!!   Here are your outtakes!

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Love you Kessy…miss you already!!!

Two Meatballs: What Would Carrie Bradshaw Do?!

You can feel it from a mile away but it’s ironically a TOTAL surprise.  The texts stop coming in as frequently…you’re not planning future dates anymore. You actually sweetly think that YOU are going to break up with HIM because you find yourself wanting more.  Then Saturday night rolls around and you get the 2014 equivalent of the Carrie Bradshaw Sex and the City post it note break up!

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A fucking break up text!!! Annnnnd you are mostly surprised by how much it stings after only three months

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but also relieved that its over because the distance and rejection over the last week  felt reallllllly shitty.  Being sober I have had oh so many revelations.  One of the biggest ones was how unknowingly unsupportive I was of my girlfriends during break ups!  I always had the mentality of why would you want to be with someone that doesn’t want to be with you.  I still feel like that, but I didn’t realize that all you want is for someone to make you feel better!  And I don’t know about you, but bashing him doesn’t make me feel better. I don’t need to turn this into anger to get pumped up to move on.  So to all my girlfriends and family members…my bad!!!! I really honestly just didn’t know.  I thought my logic and pointing out all the other persons short comings would make you feel better but it really just makes you feel worse. It feels strange at 31 to say that this is my first time being dumped!  #babysfirstheartbreak For the last decade I did anything I could to keep men at an arms length…only engaging in physical relationships. I was a drunk mess and I didn’t want to be judged or make myself vulnerable. So, when I decided to stop drinking I also decided to give a relationship a go…and I found out sooooo much.  I’m the living worst communicator!  Who knew the girl with the blog would suck so terribly at stating my own needs!  I realized that I love being in a relationship…after the first month of longing to be single bc its what I had known forever and what was comfortable.  I share my space well and I love really getting to know someone.  I love going on fun dates and doing nice things for someone I care about.  It was totally worth putting myself out there to learn how much I like being a part of something . So, I’m walking away with the knowledge that  I am totally capable of being emotionally intimate in a real grown up relationship, I could for sure work on communicating better, I can handle being broken up with with my self esteem in tact, especially when I know it’s the best thing and ultimately I have no regrets. #grown?!

 

Now, having said all of that…I can’t deny that this was really sad!!!! We never even talked about it…it just eneded…through technology!  But honestly I can’t think of a thing that would have made it better or less awkward.  Another thing that I have learned from being sober is that I am capable of feeling more emotions that just happiness and anger.  I am a very logical person when it comes to these situations.  I wanted more, he wanted less or more with someone else.  That can’t work.  My brain knows alllll of that but with no substance abuse coping mechanism

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…I spent some time on the phone with my sister and Katie bawling…saw my parents and cried some more #whoamI?!

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By the way I have the greatest people in my life ON EARTH!  I’m so thankful everyday.  The few people who knew really wanted to comfort me and I couldn’t thank them more! #theyknowmesowell

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And some time on my couch with my  tissues and favorite meatball were all necessary.  It was time to lick my wounds.  I love my little support system. But what’s next…

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“I couldn’t help but think…(did you see what I did there Nichole LuMaye!?)…What would Carrie Bradshaw do!? Retail Therapy!?

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Jenny came to my happy place last week…the beach!  So this week she took me to hers…the mall!!!

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You guys, retail therapy, especially with your best friend is a thing and it feels amazing.  First stop…MAC for a new fall lip!

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Then we went to H&M and Forever 21 and we both found so many fall looks!

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Then we went to Target for more clothes…and laughs #thankyuoforbeingafriendtraveleddowntheroadandbackagain #goldengirlssweatshirt #tootinycroptops #jennyisazombie

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Being with this girl makes me feel so much better!!!  We love trying on the ugliest stuff and who needs a dressing room am I right ladies!?!  But we did find some total gems.  But then what…comfort eat!?

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So, we had dinner at my favorite place…Coquette!  It was the most romantic dinner two little meatballs could ask for.  It was also one of our two monthly cheat nights….it was heaven!  Then we got a french silk blizzard from Dairy Queen #shame but it was the coldest little hug of yumminess!  But most of all  to feel better, I think Carrie would write about it…

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Writing down how you feel is such a cathartic thing…a total release.  Getting all of this out and then reading it back to yourself helps you process everything that happened and gives you such amazing perspective and peace.  I know that this has very little to do with paleo or workouts with a trainer but this is a little bump in my journey that I’m not going to let spiral out.  I have today to cry and then I’m moving on.  It was really hard to actually feel my feelings instead of turning to something else to make them go away.  It is ok to feel sad…but don’t wallow and know when to get out.

So in closing…a break up is sad but its also what is meant to be!  I’m choosing to walk away with fond memories and a better knowledge of what I want in the future.  Love you guys so much and thanks for the inspiration…turns out I’m a Carrie.

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Two Meatballs: Adventures in Laser Hair Removal, Cannibalism annnnd Dates Galore!!

Hiiiiiiiiiii you guyyyyyyyys!!!!!  So our format has been a little different lately!  We haven’t been cooking as much.  That segment will return I promise!  But lately Jenny and I have actually been going out when we see each other which has been great and a nice departure!

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Orrrrr…when we do hang out its been a LOT of jackassing around lately with Brandon or on breaks at work!

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#arenttheythecutest?!

So next week…watch out…we are going to cook our faces off.  But this weekend started off with my 4th session of laser hair removal south of the border…..eeeeek it was the living worst!!!  The laser just keeeeeeps getting hotter! #howisthatpossible  I can’t really take pictures when I’m in there…one  bc I’m super naked not just weigh in naked annnd two bc I’m too busy squeezing a stress ball and yelling terrible things and dying laughing.  SO here is a pic from the waiting room! #trauma

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But I survived another round #firecrotch #onlytwomoretogo #itcantgetworsethanthislastone #masochist

You guys know I live for a date! I love spending time with my family and super best buddies and the guy I’m dating #swoon.  So this weekend my sister joined me downtown to meet him and I got to meet some of his friends! This was all facilitated by my call for help Saturday night when my bra got epically stuck in my dryer!!!  My sisters advice was to unhook it #thanksihadnttriedthatyoua-hole but after turning it back on it finally flew out!  I’m in between sizes so this is my only bra #traj That is it hanging down forlornly!

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Anywhoozle …I love love love my sister and we nevvvvver get to go out together.  Plus I haven’t been downtown on a Saturday night in 1000 years.  We started out at Poole’s.  They had the yummiest looking cocktails but I got a Diet Coke…in a glass bottle #preshtodeath #vintage

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We ended up at Fox Liquor Bar where they proceeded to play Bone Thugs N’ Harmony….like the entire album on repeat at the loudest volume one could imagine. #imtoofuckingold #whendidthathappen But it was suuuupppper fun and again its so nice to be able to play DD!!!  Even though I am admittedly the worst driver of life.  Sunday Jenny and I had a lunch date but we were both so haggard looking no picture of this exists!  Then Monday night the guy and I went to get a new phone as his met an untimely death. #howdoyoulivewithoutaphonethesedays This ended up being a 2 hour ordeal at Verizon…the guy helping us was hilarious! Then we both shopped around for new clothes…look a this adorable tank from Forever 21 #80’smadonna!?

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Then we went to dinner at Tazza Kitchen in Cameron Village.  IT WAS SOOOOO GOOOD!

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This is his new phone…look how adorable!  He got a drink called the Southern Belle #iveneverlaughedsohard

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It ended up looking much more manly than I had thought…And shocker…I had water!

Then we dabbled in cannibalism…this meatball went to town on some delish meatballs!

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He knows everyone everywhere we go so the bartender sent over some of the besssst cauliflower known to man…and strawberry chello I don’t know if that is how you spell it but you know what I’m talking about right ladies!?

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Then we split crab cakes and the living best broccoli…I don’t know why it was soooo good  but y’alllllll it was sooooooo good!

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This place had so many paleo friendly options!!!  I feel like instead of cooking we are giving you guys a tour of where to eat healthy in Raleigh…is that a thing!?

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Then it was such a nice night we went to Hibernian downtown and sat on the roof!!!  You gotta love a place that has burnt down twice and just wont die.  The breeze was heaven and the view was even better #winkwink #jk #notreally  Then we watched the living worst movie…Anchorman 2!  Holy shit it was total garbage after the first 30 minutes!!! #chickenofthecaves  Haha…but what a nice way to start a week!

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Thennnnnnn last night I went to dinner with my sweet friend Nanner at Coquette and you’re never gonna guess what…i ate steak frites!!!  Anna had the duck…everything was amaze!

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After dinner I went to visit my sweet cousin Kristina bc I am having major withdrawals from her not being at work anymore.  In our almost 32 years of friendship I dont think we have ever gone more than 2 weeks without seeing one another so this has been the worst!!!!  But look at how happy this little family is! I also have to say Tim and Kristina have been sooo incredibly supportive  of the Meatballs and are just two of my very favorite people to giggle with on earth!

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We had the best time and died laughing at the most inappropriate conversations….gahhhhh I miss them!!!!  #cornchips #eboli #femaleprostate #misterpicklesfarts Oh how I looooove them!  And what an amazing week already!!!!

This coming weekend is my annual hotel sleepover with Wyatt…literally a thousand pictures to follow…another super fun date!!!  I literally cannot wait.  Hope you guys are great and we love you so much!!! #ilovedates